marci - school is yet another problem with me going i/p. i have no breaks between now and july when i complete the program. one block ends the next one begins on the very next day. this is why it's gone so quickly. but i can't quit now 'cause of the student loans and what that would do to me financially. so i have to keep going and i can't do that if i'm i/p somewhere. however this is starting to show up in my school-work anyway. i can't keep assignments straight or more importantly the due dates. i've messed up so many times this quarter it's not even funny.
i need to talk to tdoc and pdoc and come up with something. i wish there was one of those outpatient programs around here. i'd even do that. i know that i can't keep going at this rate. i'm getting worse and it's showing in so many ways. i just keep hoping that there's something that will start working. i just hate hospitals. i've only been in a few times and each time they drove me insane. and those were 'regular' hospitals. psych wards around these parts have scary reputations. there's so many reasons not to go, but at the same time i know down deep inside that if i don't get better soon i need to. i just am confused and scared.
i'll try some cereal and see what happens with that. i just went out and got some gatorade. i am so tired of being like this. i get a little ahead and then get kicked back down farther than i was before. i just love bp. i'll send you an e-mail.
I know you don't know me but I wanted to add that I agree about the lithium. I'm on lithobid and lamictal and the combination has worked fairly well for me. I read that you can't take the lamictal
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marci - school is yet another problem with me going i/p. i have no breaks between now and july when i complete the program. one block ends the next one begins on the very next day. this is why it's gone so quickly. but i can't quit now 'cause of the student loans and what that would do to me financially. so i have to keep going and i can't do that if i'm i/p somewhere. however this is starting to show up in my school-work anyway. i can't keep assignments straight or more importantly the due dates. i've messed up so many times this quarter it's not even funny.
i need to talk to tdoc and pdoc and come up with something. i wish there was one of those outpatient programs around here. i'd even do that. i know that i can't keep going at this rate. i'm getting worse and it's showing in so many ways. i just keep hoping that there's something that will start working. i just hate hospitals. i've only been in a few times and each time they drove me insane. and those were 'regular' hospitals. psych wards around these parts have scary reputations. there's so many reasons not to go, but at the same time i know down deep inside that if i don't get better soon i need to. i just am confused and scared.
i'll try some cereal and see what happens with that. i just went out and got some gatorade. i am so tired of being like this. i get a little ahead and then get kicked back down farther than i was before. i just love bp. i'll send you an e-mail.
hugs,
traci
yeah, i just went out and bought some gatorade. actually hadn't thought about it until i saw your and marci's posts. but i have it now.
i might call you this weekend. it's all i can do to get through my check-in's with tdoc and keep it together, but the urge is getting stronger.
thanks again
love u
traci
Hello,
I know you don't know me but I wanted to add that I agree about the lithium. I'm on lithobid and lamictal and the combination has worked fairly well for me. I read that you can't take the lamictal
Hugs & Positive Thoughts Always,
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