Stupid Mondays

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Stupid Mondays
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Mon, 12-12-2005 - 8:04am

I'm depressed...I'm tired...I'm sick. I got a terrible sinus infection and on top of that a stomach virus too.

I'm broke...its Christmas...I've not bought everything I needed yet...

I'm PMSing...its Monday...I'm fat and not losing weight, not bothering to even try...

Still sick and nauseated and weak and tired...don't know why i am at work...except i've been off a lot lately...

How is everyone else?

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Registered: 04-06-2005
In reply to: keli003
Mon, 12-12-2005 - 8:49am

(((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))


I'm sorry you are sick on top of everything else.

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Registered: 07-21-2005
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 12-13-2005 - 12:31am

****Possible SA triggers*****

well girls...im right there with ya. Got some kind of stomach bug that sucks big time. Its finals week which blows, but I am manic so at least im studying and the house is clean. but I need to sleep bc of this virus thing in addition to just needing to sleep period. Being broke...haha. I am sooooooooo glad we dont celebrate xmas, because we have zero dollars till like January 3rd. WHich is kinda cool because thats right before Eid and then we can afford to get the kids something. I am freaking about their school stuff though because its due next week and we dont have the $ for it. I went to see pdoc...um...Friday. She put me on Geodon 160mg a day. she told me to take 80mg for 3 days then up it to 160, but the 80mg knocked me on my butt and I cant sleep through finals week....sooooo Thursday night I will start taking it like she said. She wants to take me off the Wellbutrin and Lunesta, but I like the Lunesta, its the only sleeping med thats worked so far. She wants me to ultimately just be on Lamictal, Lithium and the Geodon. Which is fine with me, whatever works.

One serious major stressor right now is Abby(my daughter) she was in therapy for signs of sa, and she had to stop therapy bc we dont have insurance now bc DH lost his job. Ever since she stopped going, she has been behaving HORRIBLY. We had a behavior calendar for her and everyday she was good her teacher at school put a smiley stamp on it. Well for Nov, she had like 10 smiles for about 21 days, and she hit a kid. So she really needs to go back to therapy and we cant afford to pay out of pocket right now or we would just do that. As soon as DH gets a full time position with UPS or another full time job somewhere else, then we can afford it and she will go back, but I am so worried about her. She has such a hard time with things, and shes only 5. I freaking HATE that she is suffering like this. If the bastard wasnt already dead I would kill him. How in the hell can anyone do something like that? How in the hell are people so selfish?

Im just kinda pissed at the world all together right now though. Im so sick of being treated like crap just because of what some wack jobs who call themselves Muslims did. I could wear a freaking sign on my back that says "I AM NOT A TERRORIST" and people would still do stupid crap. I have to take the bus now to and from school, and the bus driver shuts the freaking door on me EVERYTIME I get off the bus. I had one guy yell at me to go back to Iraq last week. I was like WTF? Its really strange, but I have noticed that my human status has dropped to zero following 9/11. Before 9/11 I was treated like every other white American girl on the planet, no big deal. Now, white people look at me like I am some sort of freak and they are afraid I will attack them or something(Im not trying to be racist, but its the damn truth) and the only people who speak to me at all, are black women, who before never spoke to me at all. In sociology you learn race theory about how each race and gender is assigned some sort of level. White men being first and black women being last. Well I have dropped from second on that scale to fourth from my experiences of late. Which is fine with me except when stupid rednecks who think that they have a freaking clue about the world talk down to me for some assumption that they consider the truth. Do any of them bother to study Islam, read the Quran, talk to a Muslim, visit a mosque? NO! my own freaking mother is the same way and it makes me crazy

Anyways sorry for the vent...I hope you guys get to feeling better and just know that you are not alone and I love you all.

Rebekah

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