last night......trigs maybe?

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last night......trigs maybe?
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Tue, 12-13-2005 - 1:11pm

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as we all know i am not in good shape at all. and a lot of you have said that i/p is where i should be right now to get straightened out. up until last night i was becoming more inclined to agree. however, last night something happened that showed me exactly why i can't go i/p.


first, i went to tdoc and had a very intense session. before i could ask about her opinion of me looking for a new pdoc she suggested it to me. she said after the past week she's been thinking about it more and more and she has one in mind that she thinks i would do very well with. i told her to go for it that i was going to ask her about it. we discussed everything that had gone on this past week in great depth and yes, i/p was mentioned. i once again explained my fears about the particular hospital and asked about the possibility of a tour if it comes to that. 2 hours later i walked out of her office.


little did i know at that point i would wind up spending the rest of last night and up until noon today in the hospital anyway...........only NOT for me! ds started complaining of severe abdominal pain, running a fever and holding his right side. i called a friend of mine who is a medic to get her opinion on whether my suspicions were on track for appendicitis. she said take him to the er. so at 9:30 we arrived at the er and were there until approximately 3:00 a.m. when he was transferred to the actual hospital for observation and a probable appendectomy today pending further observations and lab work. the ct scan showed a stone in the appendix, but ds was also presenting with flu like symptoms so the surgeon wasn't sure which was causing the grief, hence the observation. thankfully, it wasn't his appendix and both of us are home now.


this is where my change of heart regarding i/p comes in. when all of this happened last night with ds i immediately called stupid x and got his voice mail. so, i left a message. he got around to returning it this morning at 5:00 - about 20 minutes after i had finally drifted off to sleep. traci was not happy! anyway, the incident proved to me that xh will not be responsible for the kids. my mother who was all concerned was drunk and passed out by 11:30 which left my dd 16 who was in er with me and my dd12 who was home and in bed. i have NOBODY to step in and handle things....especially in the event of an emergency as was the case last night.


now, as a result of all of this i am worse than i was before, but once again it's external stuff that's responsible. first, stupid x shows up at the hospital this morning "for his son" who is, by this point, sound asleep. xh then proceeds to whine about his money woes and tell me all about his latest romps with his lover, etc., etc. this is the LAST *#(@*@& thing i want to hear under the best of circumstances let alone while i am looking at my son in a hospital bed. add to the mix my mother who called me to tell me she took the liberty to call my work because she figured i hadn't to tell them i wouldn't be in today, and then called the school to tell them my son would not be there today. i know she meant well, but dammit can people please give me a shred of credit?!?!?!?! i had already made both phone calls hours before.

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Tue, 12-13-2005 - 1:47pm

I really have nothing to say but I'm sorry.

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Tue, 12-13-2005 - 2:17pm

thanks donna. ds is holding his own. still not 100% but 1000 times better than he was last night.


stupid x......well when i left the room to call tdoc i told her it was either throw him out the window or me jump. that's when i decided to call her. i hate him so much as he has the ability to just send me further down than i am to begin with.


new pdoc has already called and gone over some preliminary stuff and is sending me the standard new pt packet. tdoc told me where her office is and it turns out new pdoc is literally right around the corner from my house. she doesn't take my insurance but she bills it for me and then just bills me the difference, which will be about equal to a standard copay.


right now i'm trying to put xh and mother out of my mind and settle down. i've got an appointment at 3:30 with my acupuncturist so i'm hoping that helps some. then i'm planning on a nap. after the nap, it's off to dd12's band "winter" (cough cough)

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Tue, 12-13-2005 - 2:30pm

make something easy...something you don't have to think about, or grab something on the way !!!!


sounds like the new pdoc is going to be awesome !!!!


hang in there sweetie

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 12-13-2005 - 2:48pm

Traci,

I agree, I think that a new pdoc is just what you need. Maybe they will change your meds, and you'll finally start feeling better.

I'm glad ds is okay.

You know we're here for you.

Love you

Keli

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Tue, 12-13-2005 - 3:14pm

thanks donna. i have an idea fast food is on the menu tonight.....just hope ds is up to it, or maybe grab him a can of chicken noodle soup if he's even hungry.


it's nice to know that all my docs now will be within 5 minutes of my house. tdoc and acupuncturist are in the same building which is 5 minutes away and new pdoc is like 1 minute from here.


now if i can just get back on track. that's going to be the trick and hope this new pdoc is a good magician.


love u

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Registered: 11-18-2003
Tue, 12-13-2005 - 3:16pm

thanks keli. i hope so. tdoc seems to think new pdoc is what i need too. so we'll see what happens. i need something to give me hope and right now that's about it.


love you too,


traci