donna i'm hanging in by the skin of my teeth. i have to go see tdoc in a little bit which has me worried. the other night when i was having my melt down i violated my contract. i know it was 'cause i was just on overload from the day's events - capped off by xh, but i'm worried she won't understand. but i've been safe since then so i don't know.
just got back from tdoc. i gave her what i used. we talked a lot about xh and she wants me to call this one lawyer that i know of for a consult. what it boils down to is i am going to have to ask my mother for the money.......there's no other way. well, except to continue to let xh walk all over top of me. not sure which is worse right now, but taking some control over at least some of this is what tdoc thinks will start pulling me out of this. then to go see the new pdoc and get the meds worked out.
she also wants me to start eating more. i started being able to hold food down again, but now i just don't want it. i'm not hungry. but she said she can tell by looking at me that i've lost a lot of weight. she asked me how much i've lost. i have no idea. my once tight jeans are now very loose on me to the point i need a belt. so i know i've lost a good bit. tdoc wasn't happy with that.
i don't know how it's gotten so far out of control. tdoc said it's cause all these major events came crashing down on me when i was already in a depressed mood. i just hate being like this. and worse, being like this for as long as i have been this time around. it just all sucks. but i've given my word (along with other items) to tdoc that i won't do anything
donna i'm hanging in by the skin of my teeth. i have to go see tdoc in a little bit which has me worried. the other night when i was having my melt down i violated my contract. i know it was 'cause i was just on overload from the day's events - capped off by xh, but i'm worried she won't understand. but i've been safe since then so i don't know.
I'm sorry....still wishing there was something I could do.
you'll make it thru...you will for the kids, you know this.
just be honest with tdoc...you always are and she'll understand
AND GET RID OF WHATEVER YOU USED THE OTHER DAY !!!
God could not be everywhere, so
just got back from tdoc. i gave her what i used. we talked a lot about xh and she wants me to call this one lawyer that i know of for a consult. what it boils down to is i am going to have to ask my mother for the money.......there's no other way. well, except to continue to let xh walk all over top of me. not sure which is worse right now, but taking some control over at least some of this is what tdoc thinks will start pulling me out of this. then to go see the new pdoc and get the meds worked out.
she also wants me to start eating more. i started being able to hold food down again, but now i just don't want it. i'm not hungry. but she said she can tell by looking at me that i've lost a lot of weight. she asked me how much i've lost. i have no idea. my once tight jeans are now very loose on me to the point i need a belt. so i know i've lost a good bit. tdoc wasn't happy with that.
i don't know how it's gotten so far out of control. tdoc said it's cause all these major events came crashing down on me when i was already in a depressed mood. i just hate being like this. and worse, being like this for as long as i have been this time around. it just all sucks. but i've given my word (along with other items) to tdoc that i won't do anything
as much as it sucks to ask her for the money...its a good start !!!!
hang in there...call me if you need to
love u
God could not be everywhere, so