Life is toooo short, maybe trigs

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Life is toooo short, maybe trigs
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Tue, 12-20-2005 - 12:40pm

A friend of ours, actually my brothers BIL was killed Saturday in a car accident. It was raining heavily, and he lost control of the vehicle, and hit a tree. During impact, his brain was severly shaken...he died in surgery. My brother and SIL's family are devastated. He left a wife, and six children...they were young, and had their children young. The children range in age from 16 to 1.

I wanted to die this weekend. My depression was SO bad. And now I think...what if I did? I would miss out on so much...my son graduating high school...having his own family...my dh would be alone...my mother and father would be devastated. My friends would be heart broken...I would miss out on the sunny days that bring me just enough happiness and joy to make it all okay.

Life is already sooo very short, and we aren't promised tomorrow. We waste so many days...in the midst of hellish depression and we give up. We cannot give up! We have to fight for every minute of every day! We have to be thankful for the SMALL things. We have to take pride and joy in what we already have...not what we MIGHT get tomorrow.

I know that I am the WORST when it comes to being depressed. It hits me hard every time. And when I'm in the midst of it, these things don't come to mind easily. So I wanted to remind you all of it now.

Love to all,

Keli

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Tue, 12-20-2005 - 1:50pm

Touche my friend....that was awesome !!


love u

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Tue, 12-20-2005 - 5:49pm

Keli, That is all so true. After losing my dad, mom, and brother, I realize anyone can go at any time including me. After all this pain i am feeling over my moms death it has made me think that i would never want Jayme(dd) to ever go through the pain of losing me. I wouldn't want anyone to suffer from losing me. I am so glad you see this and I know you appreciate the things you do have. I appreciate you as my friend. There are so many things I am grateful for. I may not have everything I want but today I have what I need. Your right when we get depressed we lose track of being grateful because we are in such a dark place. That is what this illness does. It takes away our hope and gratefullness. But we can do are darnest to never give up and keep going on. On our darkest days it would be good for us to write down all the things that are good in our lives. Not that it will take away the pain we fill about what is wrong, but it may help us see that ALL is not bad.


I love you and I am soooooooo sorry for your loss and I know how devestaing that is. I feel so bad for his family...his children...God be with them.


Tina~