Doesn't seem to understand... triggers??
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| Wed, 12-21-2005 - 12:21am |
My mom and I had a intresting conversation on the phone today and I am now convinced that she thinks that my manic episodes are really "normal living" and I am just not used "feeling normal".
I know what normal is. I have been there.
I have been balanced... and stable... and felt good.
Racing thoughts... energy out of nowhere... feeling like your going 100 mph... and then the inevitable crash isn't "normal".
Does she think I am just making up being manic?
Lets not even speak about medication. She wishes I didn't need it and tells me a lot. So do I wish I didn't need it... but the fact is that I WILL need it for the rest of my life and "wishing and hoping" won't change that. This is part of who I am. Forever.
Thanks for listening to me vent. I just wish others could accept my disorder for what it is... and believe that I know myself better than anyone else.
Best wishes to all...
Kris
Edited 12/21/2005 12:22 am ET by thinks-in-cirlces

I could have written your post. My mother comes into town tonight. I love her, but she does not understand at all. I wish people would just get it a little bit even.
Hugs.
Missy
Hey Kris,
I think most people who aren't Bipolar have a VERY hard time understanding our disorder. Being manic especially...they can't SEE it as clearly as we can...I have tried and tried and tried to explain to my dh, my mom and dad, my ds, what being manic feels like, what it looks like...and they really try to understand, but unless they are going through it, they just don't get it.
As for meds, oh how I wish too we didn't need it...but we do...and you're so right, we need it for the rest of our lives.
The depression side of the disorder is easier to "see". Sometimes we can put on the mask and hide it, but not when we're so low its hard to leave the bed, or take a shower...or talk to anyone...
Hang in there honey...we all know exactly how you feel. Just try to understand that sometimes they CAN'T see us for who we are. Its not easy, because we just want to say, darn it, if we COULD be "normal" we WOULD!
Love and Hugs,
Keli