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Depressed now
| Thu, 12-22-2005 - 12:43pm |
Well, I bled all through the weekend and all this week, I've been off the last two days. But every time they do an ultrasound they can't find a reason. Little bean (actually its a BIG bean now) is still in there at least for the moment. Today, however the bleeding has become a little heavier, and I have started passing small clots. I haven't called the OB yet-they'll just tell me to take it easy. I am sooo tired of this. Work is NOT thrilled with me missing time. My supervisor isn't even speaking to me. And I am tired of not knowing what the heck is going on. There's GOT to be a reason for all this bleeding. It's starting to wear on me. Now I've gotten depressed. I keep expecting everything to just gush out of me any second, which isn't the best attitude I know. But I HATE feeling like this. Maybe all the meds I take has harmed the fetus or maybe I'm too old. The docs all say my uterus is completely folded in half. That struck me as odd but they didn't seem too concerned. The stress has really gotten me down. My DH is no help at all. He's so childish it's often like talking to a big teen. My mother gets annoyed if I stress too much, so I can't keep telling her. I have been fighting tears all day, but if I loose it at work one more time I'm sure I'll get fired. So I am sitting here trying to look as normal as possible. Which isn't easy!
Sorry so glum!
Jodie
Sorry so glum!
Jodie

oh hon...I'm so sorry...and what a bunch of )(*%*%*)^*_(& at your place of employement.
God could not be everywhere, so