So it is the Seroquel

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So it is the Seroquel
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Sun, 12-25-2005 - 11:43pm

I've been really wondering lately if H really was not happy in his choice of coming home. He has seemed emotionless except for bouts of irritability. It's been a hard place to be & I was even questioning if I had made the right choice.

Then today he was more himself than what I've seen in a long time. He was smiling, laughing, enjoying our kids, participating in family events, etc. I mentioned my observation to H and he reminded me the ER pdoc told him if he was having a hard time getting through the day to only take the Seroquel at night. So he skipped this morning. It was wonderful!!! He is not completely himself yet, but there is a lot of emotional trauma we're both recovering from ... not to mention he has not yet been allowed back to work and he's really stressed they will not let him & we're running out of money all the while charging up a lot of debt.

The good news is his work was able to find him a pdoc (for a '2nd opinion') who can see H on Friday. H could not get an appointment earlier than Feb 28th. I'm really hoping he's on our insurance plan (his work is paying for this evaluation) and he can prescribe additional meds to H. Then perhaps we can start working more on healing ourselves.

-- oh -- BTW:

The OW sent him a pkg. She at first was calling (leaving VM as H was not answering) and emailing. When H did not respond to her VM with another suicide threat she stopped calling all together, but did email at least once since. So now she's sent a pkg. H doesn't know what to do with it so it's been sitting in his office, unopened, since Wed. H turned off his phone today as I was worried she would most likely call today. So he's doing really well on NC on his end. I wish he wouldn't read/listen to her msgs, but he needs to do things his own way. At least he's not responding. Even when she left that last suicide threat I asked H why not call her mother or the Crisis Hotline in her area. H said no, he is not involved any more.

...SINCE EVERYONE ASKS...

I'm doing fairly well. Instead of being either depressed or normal, I've been feeling much less depression, lots of normal and more happy than depressed. This is even through the 22nd of Dec (the 1st anniversary of my brother's death). The only time I really get depressed is when I start to think of the A and start imagining what was/is going on. But I'm learning to go to H and ask for clarification (when my mood starts to drop) and find out I'm having irrational thoughts. Oh, I also get depressed when I read my after affair books, which is usually while trying to get my 12mo to bed so I end up going to bed in tears (H is always asleep before me now that he's taking Seroquel so he has no idea I do this).

Christmas was wonderful. While my mom is living in China my sister takes care of USA type finances. So my mom called her and asked her to spend $100 on my kids & ship it to me. I won't shop the day after Thanksgiving, but my sisters always do. So they also bought presents for my kids & my kids ended up having at least 4x's as much than we would have done if we did have money. I was so excited I didn't sleep all night long. (Liam is 3-3/4 yrs old now so this Christmas has been the most fun yet.)

Bonnie




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Mon, 12-26-2005 - 3:14pm

Hi Bonnie, I'm glad to hear your H is more like himself lately, and you are doing well. I wish that OW would just leave him alone already! (I'm sure you do too!)

I hope you have a great week and that your H's appt. goes well.

Take care,
Lori

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Mon, 12-26-2005 - 8:35pm
i'm glad to hear a second opinion.i stopped taking my seroquel when i read it was keeping ing me fat....maybe it'll make me happy to quit it too.can'y hurt to try.
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Tue, 12-27-2005 - 8:05am

Hey Bonnie! I'm really glad your H skipped a dose of the Seroquel, just to see what happened...I can't take it without hitting a major depression, or just like you described...feeling really out of it, not myself, angry, emotionless, and I HATE IT!

I was soooooooooo much better off without it...the only thing is that I can't sleep well without it...but its so worth it to not take it...

Some people swear by it, and I must admit that I NEEDED IT at times...for suicidal thoughts, hallucinations, and when I was severely manic.

Anyway, glad things are going so well for you.

STOP READING THOSE BOOKS!

Love and Hugs,

Keli