Update and a vent (long)
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Update and a vent (long)
| Wed, 12-28-2005 - 12:14pm |
Hi all,
I hope you all had, or are having a wonderful holiday. Just to update a little. The girls had a great Christmas. They made out like bandits. They got clothes, DVD's,


(((((cyn))))) i don't have words to offer, but please know that i'm sending tons of p & pt your way and rick's. we are here for you so post as often as you want. i can only imagine what you are feeling right now and i wish i could take the pain away. moreso, i wish i could fix it to where rick didn't have to go. but then i'm sure i'm not alone there. hang in there hon. we're here for you.
love & hugs,
traci
(((((((((Cyn)))))))))))
I'm so sorry.
God could not be everywhere, so
Thank you (((((Traci)))))
I wish he didn't have to leave either. Last night was a rough one. He had to pack all of his bags, for a bag drag. A bag drag is where they check to see that you have all of your gear. They also check to see that you have all of the uniforms, hygiene products, clothes, underwear that you need.
Hi Donna,
Thank you for the hugs. Like I told Traci, last night was really hard. He was packing his gear and his clothes to take with him. He had to have it all inspected this morning.
Thanks ((((((Cyn)))))) things have been a nightmare for me lately. I hit the worst depression ever and have been there for at least a month if not more. Tdoc was talking hospitalization right up until last week. The SI was out of hand, I wasn't honoring my contract with her, I just plain didn't care.
Then I stopped taking some of my meds - the seroquel, trileptal and trazodone. All of these were making me sleep much of the day and I was feeling worse instead of better. Now that they are all out of my system I'm starting to feel less hopeless. The only glitch is that the racing thoughts and paranoia are back. I have an appt with a new pdoc next week to see if she can get my meds straightened out so again there's a little more hope. If it gets too bad with the thoughts and paranoia I've got the seroquel still, but I'm hoping that I won't need it. I really want a fresh start with the meds. So we can find out what actually works and what doesn't.
But for now, I'm feeling a little better and savoring that. As it's something 2 weeks ago I would not have believed.
I want you to know that we are so here for you. We love you here and want you to post as often as you want/need. We will give you as much support as we can.
love and hugs,
traci
Hi Traci,
I am glad to hear that your depression is lifting. Everything is so much harder to do when you are depressed. I will try to post now and then. It is going to be hard, but I have been a single mom every time he leaves. Add to that the worry of what might's and all of that. It is no surprise I am hating this deployment that hasn't even started yet.
Have a wonderful weekend.
Love and hugs,