I think I'm going manic! (Venting)

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Registered: 06-18-2003
I think I'm going manic! (Venting)
Mon, 01-16-2006 - 10:10pm

Lately I've had a lot of stress in my life. I'm moving from my parents house where I get 24 hour help with my daughter to my husband's house in North Carolina. Rachael will be put in Daycare b/c I get too stressed out taking care of her by myself and I have a paranoia that I'm going to hurt her. Anyway I have to get a job. I already have an interview lined up the day after I arrive in North Carolina. It's a M-F 8-5 job. Weekends off is cool,however, I need to have atleast one weekday off so I can go to my doctor/psychiatrist/counceling appointments. I'm fearful that they will not hire me if I ask for a weekday off. I should be able to get a job easily b/c I've been a Certified Nursing Assistant for four years. The type of work I would be doing if I get the job will vary. I will either be at hospice patients homes or working at assisted livings and nursing homes. I will be working for an agency. I've spent a lot of money on uniforms, stethescope, blood pressure cuffs, etc. I'm freaking out b/c I've been spending money like crazy. I need to get a job desperately and I hope I don't talk myself out of it b/c of my social anxiety and fear that others will somehow know I'm Bipolar.

Jenn