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Rapid Cycling...
| Thu, 01-19-2006 - 7:50am |
Well, you just gotta love rapid cycling...I was completely suicidally depressed yesterday...got home, went to sleep for only about 30 minutes...woke up, ate dinner, and boy was I manicky!!! OMG! I was talking out of my mind! My poor dh, all he could do was listen to me talk crazy! LOL...so then I went to bed, and just listened to a CD and LMAO! I don't know what was up with me...well, yes I do...
So this morning, I'm up up up...
Hate the crashes, but love the ups...
I'll check in with you all later.
Thanks for listening to me, and for understanding my crazies.
Nobody else does...they just think I'm nuts...that I can go from crying and crying to laughing and laughing in a matter of 2 hours.
Love and Hugs,
Keli

Yes Keli, BTDT, in a matter of only a few hours. I could have been suicidal, crying, screaming, raging - and then snap out of it and be fine. Well, maybe not "fine," but as fine as I ever got.
I'm really thankful for the meds. Right now the lamactil is really keeping the voices in my head in check. I'm curious, though, I read so much on this board about people being medicated for BP and still cycling or becoming severely depressed. How does that work? Does your body eventually adjust to the meds and they don't work anymore?
I know the prognosis for BP is not good. I know it only gets worse, never better. I'm just hoping to remain stable. Mine didn't really get bad until my 40s, so I wonder whether my progression might be slower...
Oh well, Keli, I just wanted to send you some identification and (((hugs))) to get thru your day. Love, Mo.
Yup, did it yesterday too....was SO cranky yesterday...left here went home was fine...then just got plain ole goofy stupid you name it..it was fun tho.
God could not be everywhere, so
I am not a rapid cycler but when I do have my ups and downs. I do love the ups but you ar right the crash is the the worst. Ihope all willl be well with you today. I have to got to my new part time job in a bit so i will check in with you all later. wish me luck maybe i canhold down this job for more then 8 months..lol
johanna