Is okay ever 'not mania'?

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Is okay ever 'not mania'?
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Mon, 01-23-2006 - 3:31pm

Just ramblings from a manic me who has too much time on my hands...but i am wondering...when is "i am okay" or "i feel good today" not "i am manic as hell"??? For me, its never. When I'm okay, it means I'm either really manic, or hypomanic on my way up. If I say, I'm okay today, then that means I'm cycling up. If I ever say, I'm not good, then that's really bad. And when I say bad, I mean REALLY BAD.

Its never 'just' okay.

Guess that's just the ins and outs of rapid cycling.

Can anyone else relate to this? Does anyone else have the REALLY high highs??? Then the really low lows like I do? Is it just me and my kind of BP? Surely not. It sure feels that way though most of the time.

Oh well.

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Mon, 01-23-2006 - 3:42pm

I never get the real high highs..sometimes wish i did. ...and when i crash, i crash.

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Mon, 01-23-2006 - 3:46pm

sometimes the really high highs are scary though...when they last too long...they get real scary...cuz the higher you go up, the worse things get...that's what scares me...yeah, they're fun as heck for a while...but then when you can't sleep for days, and stuff starts happening, ugh. Remember that song, My Mind Is Playing Tricks On Me???? That's how it is...or how it seems...I don't know...stop listening to me at any time you want. :)

yeah, the pms time for me is bad...that's when i get my lowest lows...

u better start talking woman...when we ask u how u are, we really want to know how u are! we don't just want to hear okay, if you aren't okay. we really care about u and if u aren't okay, we can't help you...of course, if u don't feel like talking about it, then that's totally understandable too.

Its SOOOOO cold in my office...REALLY cold...it always is...its warm outside...but COLD in here...

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Mon, 01-23-2006 - 3:53pm

yeah....I hear ya.


is this something that can come out after you have kids?


I mean, I was not so nice as a teenager, but that's normal, to be pissed off at the world all the time when you are that age.

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Registered: 07-21-2005
Mon, 01-23-2006 - 7:01pm

::::Raises hand:::: Can I join your club too? LOL! Anyways, I have asked myself the same question a bazillion times. I think we are just lucky..haha.

Rebekah

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Mon, 01-23-2006 - 7:08pm

yanno Donna, you might be on to something. I mean I know I was bp since like early adolesence...but not before puberty and it seems like the only time I felt sane at all was when I was pregnant with ds and dd. I have my worst lows during pms and was extremely low after the kids were born, I went to my ob and cried and begged him to help me and he said it was normal...it was NOT normal. Anyways, for years I just thought I had hormonal imbalances and thats why I cycled so much, I even used progesterone cream and almost went on bc just because I thought it might level me out...but of course thats not the reason, but I do think that hormones are a HUGE part of bp and that might be why women get it a bazillion times more than men. Anyways, just my thoughts

Rebekah

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