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Bethie
| Mon, 01-30-2006 - 2:52pm |
Hey...are you okay? Please check in with me...okay?
Call if you want...
Just worryin about u...ur 2 quiet, even 4 u!!
Love you baby!
Keli
| Mon, 01-30-2006 - 2:52pm |
Hey...are you okay? Please check in with me...okay?
Call if you want...
Just worryin about u...ur 2 quiet, even 4 u!!
Love you baby!
Keli
holy moly babes, i am NOT NOT NOT quiet today. i am a raving lunatic.
i must be taking WAYYY too much a/d's now and it caught up with me big time today. too much wellbutrin, and teh friggin what do you call it trazadone stuff is really kicking in now. kept me up last night instead of knociking me out like its supposed to and ive been off the wall all day, wicked loud and yelling at people, and havent been able to calm down at al.
and guess what ELSE. went on a friggin shopping spree online today at work too. i cannot afford this. but what the heck right i deserve something good in my life because my life is ROT right now.
and guess what ELSE. i am meeting my xh for dinner tonight. set that one up this morning too. feeling lonely. im gonna regret this one, i know it.
and guess what ELSE. im back in the race for losing. down another 2 lbs!!! the clothes that i bought a couple weeks ago are hanging off me. this is great.
holy moly i cant slow down. i dont wanna take valium because im getting too much done. and i feel pretty good. why should i ruin it? ive been down and depressed for so friggin long. but its the crankyness thats getting to me, and being pissed off at everyone else. if every stupid person in the world would just stya the heck out of my way, id be just fine.
but ive had lots of si thoughts today too. to calm myself. to get rid of the anger and pissy mood. holy moly. UGH!!! i dont know if i should cut back on the a/d's or not. im not sure if this is all a good hting or what. i know it could VERY easily turn into a VERY bad thing. and i dont want that. but i NEED this extra energy. why cant anything be simploe. why cant i have energy and just be happy?! why cant i just be NORMAL for a chnange?! last night i took 300 seroquel and 300 trazadone and could NOT sleep. that's just NOT right.
i have to get back to work for 3:35. so if i miss you, ill check back tonight.
i love ya babes!
hey bethie!
a little hypmania never hurt us!!! you know what to watch for, otherwise just enjoy not being depressed anymore...
i'm not going to stop my meds...was just me talking...got them called in and will pick them up tomorrow...
OMG you are going to dinner with X??? Have fun, dang it...don't stress over anything...just chill out and have fun...we'll deal with whatever LATER!
don't worry about the shopping spree...i jsut bought a dang car that i cannot afford to shell out $1100 tomorrow for either...but its worth it and i needed it.
as for the irritability, and taking valium, you'll know when its time...just don't go toooooo far out there...ya know? i hate it too, cuz it brings it all down.
i am STILL at work over an hour late because i had to do this project...now i'm waiting on OTHER PEOPLE! Hate that...can't leave til I get their part, even though I have done my part. UGH.
anyway, i'm okay...a bit on the "i'm pissed off" manicky side...which could be bad, but i'm trying to calm down...dh called and said he needed my car by 6, and i may not be home by 6...its almost 5 and traffic is hell here...so i'm all stressed out.
love u baby...u have to call me and tell me about tonight...