Flying High

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Flying High
Tue, 01-31-2006 - 7:52am

I am sooooooooo manic...omg. How did THAT happen? Last night, I was still depressed...cried some more...was really frustrated and down about the whole thing...then in a matter of less than an hour, I went up...way up. I went to bed around 11, but couldn't sleep at all...just laid there mostly...couldn't think, which is a very good thing...but this morning, OMG I am just flying...my thoughts are racing like mad, and i have this project for my boss to complete...i have to fake my way through that...i have tons of bills to pay and errands to run.

I did call in my meds yesterday. Its probably why I'm manicky today. No meds for the last couple days.

The difference in moods, when you rapid cycle, is totally amazing...it still makes me wonder how the hell its even possible. But some of us are living proof that it is.

I have to ride this out and not do anything remotely stupid. There's a huge possibility here that I could do something stupid, so I'm trying to remind myself constantly that I'm manic and that what i WANT to do and what i HAVE to do are 2 totally separate things.