no, not really okay...rapid cycling really really fast...but trying very hard...bad bad bad night last night...today is a new day...for whatever that is worth.
thank you for asking about me...
its so hard...but you know that. i did get my meds filled yesterday, so i'm hoping that will even me out some again soon.
((((((((((((keli)))))))))))) ~ you are fighting so hard and yes, i know it sucks. and while i'm probably the last person who has the right to suggest this, maybe it's time to start thinking about i/p again. i know you have said before that you won't go again, but hon, if the meds don't work you've got to do something proactive. i know you don't want to even consider that option, but if you don't and you get worse you know someone will make that decision for you. just like almost happened with me.
i am hoping and praying that these meds get you squared away. i really am. i don't want you to have to go i/p again. i'm just putting that out there for you to consider. you know i love you and don't want anything bad to happen. you know i'm here for you anytime you need to talk. so keep posting. otherwise, i'll worry about you. Hang in there and remember we love you and want you to be safe!
I think my latest episodes have more to do with stressors and not taking my meds properly than anything else. I got agitated (again, still) this morning, but took an Ativan like I am supposed to, whether it makes me sleepy or not. Its working. I also have to remember that I have PMS. It kills me everytime too. My dh is sick and that is stressing me out...I bought a car, and am now broke and that is stressing me out...so I have an unusual amount of stressors right now. I'm also triggering myself, for whatever reason. I know what's going on with me...and I know how to fight it. I just get a bit overwhelmed sometimes and need to cry...need to let it all out...need to get angry...ya know?
When I was going IP before, my thinking and thought processes were bad...I had no control. I now have control at least most of the time, and when I don't, I allow someone else to take over, so to speak. I get in touch with SOMEONE to listen to me and get me through. Thanks to you for listening last night.
I'm going to be okay...just gotta get my stress level down, and get through PMS, and get my dh better, and I'll be fine. Oh, and take my meds like I'm supposed to.
I do understand totally. Just keep telling yourself everything you just put down here on the screen and you will get through this. Most importantly, keep reaching out like you did last night and here today. We all are here for you and we all love ya!
I'm glad that you have been able to figure a lot of the stressors out. You can't necessarily "change" them, but you can identify and deal with them a lot easier when you know what they are. You seem to have a good handle on that.
Right now I've got to get back to work. But I will be around later if you want to talk some more:) Keep on hanging in there and fighting the good fight.
Keli,
Is everything okay?
no, not really okay...rapid cycling really really fast...but trying very hard...bad bad bad night last night...today is a new day...for whatever that is worth.
thank you for asking about me...
its so hard...but you know that. i did get my meds filled yesterday, so i'm hoping that will even me out some again soon.
((((((((((((keli)))))))))))) ~ you are fighting so hard and yes, i know it sucks. and while i'm probably the last person who has the right to suggest this, maybe it's time to start thinking about i/p again. i know you have said before that you won't go again, but hon, if the meds don't work you've got to do something proactive. i know you don't want to even consider that option, but if you don't and you get worse you know someone will make that decision for you. just like almost happened with me.
i am hoping and praying that these meds get you squared away. i really am. i don't want you to have to go i/p again. i'm just putting that out there for you to consider. you know i love you and don't want anything bad to happen. you know i'm here for you anytime you need to talk. so keep posting. otherwise, i'll worry about you. Hang in there and remember we love you and want you to be safe!
love you,
traci
Hey Traci,
I think my latest episodes have more to do with stressors and not taking my meds properly than anything else. I got agitated (again, still) this morning, but took an Ativan like I am supposed to, whether it makes me sleepy or not. Its working. I also have to remember that I have PMS. It kills me everytime too. My dh is sick and that is stressing me out...I bought a car, and am now broke and that is stressing me out...so I have an unusual amount of stressors right now. I'm also triggering myself, for whatever reason. I know what's going on with me...and I know how to fight it. I just get a bit overwhelmed sometimes and need to cry...need to let it all out...need to get angry...ya know?
When I was going IP before, my thinking and thought processes were bad...I had no control. I now have control at least most of the time, and when I don't, I allow someone else to take over, so to speak. I get in touch with SOMEONE to listen to me and get me through. Thanks to you for listening last night.
I'm going to be okay...just gotta get my stress level down, and get through PMS, and get my dh better, and I'll be fine. Oh, and take my meds like I'm supposed to.
I love you too...and thanks for caring.
Keli
I do understand totally. Just keep telling yourself everything you just put down here on the screen and you will get through this. Most importantly, keep reaching out like you did last night and here today. We all are here for you and we all love ya!
I'm glad that you have been able to figure a lot of the stressors out. You can't necessarily "change" them, but you can identify and deal with them a lot easier when you know what they are. You seem to have a good handle on that.
Right now I've got to get back to work. But I will be around later if you want to talk some more:) Keep on hanging in there and fighting the good fight.
Love You,
Traci