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| Thu, 02-02-2006 - 9:21am |
ok...it's been a long time....tell me what you are thankful for today...at least 5, 10 would be awesome !!
| Thu, 02-02-2006 - 9:21am |
ok...it's been a long time....tell me what you are thankful for today...at least 5, 10 would be awesome !!
Oh I love doing this! But, it makes me feel so guilty though cause I'm always thinking of the bad things instead of the good. That's part of the down side of BP I guess.
1)God give my 6 yr old girl back to me after the dad and inlaws had help from the gov't in stealing her from me. She was with them 2 1/2 yrs. 25 lawyers told me there was no way they could do what they did. No one would help me. I have to say 'god' did it because there was no way I could have. It just come out that bad problems were going on in that house and that's how I got her back.
2)My 2nd baby lived after the dr's said me and her would both die if I started bleeding for the 2nd time (I had placenta previa) I told them I DID bleed 2 times before I got to the hospital!
3)My 2nd baby walked at 27 months after genetics specialists at Egleston (children hospital in Atlanta) told me she would never walk, be in a wheelchair and retarded.
4)God give me the greatest husband in the world after I had been thru 2 bad marriages. I had to wait 8 years for him, and again have to say 'god' give him to me because of circumstances, and dreams.
5)I have been a stay at home mom since 1998. I have always wanted to do this, but always had to work and always hated it cause I wanted to be with my girls.
6)My 2nd girl had bad asthma, pnuemonia and allergies very bad when she was 3-6 yrs old. Again I have to say god healed her, cause she was getting pnuemonia over and over and they wanted to do MRI to see what was wrong, and they found nothing wrong and she never got it again. The allergies and asthma stopped, too.
There are many many more things but these are the biggies. See, what did I tell you? I am sitting here wondering why I am feeling so bad...
Thank you so much for this post, it has made my day :)
1) Loaner laptops!!!!
Hmmm... I agree with sisymay... When my BP acts up I tend to be a pessimist. (That's how I know what mood I'm in. I told my dh to look for that sign: I'm normally an optimist and can be through a lot; but if I get pessimistic, then things are REALLY bad.) Anyway... I think I can squeeze out a few things...
1. Dh and I have put our marriage back together.
2. I have my kids back. (They were at my parents for the last month while dh and I fought things out and put our old, bad marriage to death and built the beginnings of a new one. Long story!)
3. We get our tax return tomorrow and with it we'll be able to pay lots of bills and fix up dh's car!
4. Dh is getting out of the military soon and then we'll both be free to be individuals again! And with that career change we'll be moving closer to all of my family. (Okay, that's two things.)
5. Friends. We've got some really awesome friends who have helped us out in many ways.
6. Mania. The housekeeping's gotta get done sometime, why not while everybody else is in bed and I can't sleep?? :) (Seriously. My almost 5 month old is teething, so he's not sleeping real well, so it's good I'm up a lot at night anyway. Dh volunteered to take him tonight and tomorrow night so I can take an Ambien and sleep as much as I need.)
7. Why didn't I put this earlier???? My dh, Alex! He's been so awesome to me. Since we've begun a better marriage, he's really there for me and listens to me and helps me. He's fun to be with now and he's a great father!
8. Internet banking. That way I don't have to call the bank 24/7 to find out if the return's posted.
9. Medicine. **POSS TRIG** I was really suicidal last weekend, before the kids came back. I had minor alcohol poisoning, actually, but never did get to take the pills with it. Well, I talked to my counselor about it and she INSISTED that I see the doc and get back on meds and counseling specifically for my BP. (I thought it was gone, so I didn't take my meds. But it wasn't gone!) And since I got back on my Celexa, I'm doing great. No more suicidal thoughts, better sleep (when I can get these stupid dreams under control), and much more stable and patient during the day. Still a struggle, so I may need to up the meds, but it's better than it was by a million percent. **TRIG OVER**
10. New glasses. My prescription doubled in the last two years, and I just got new glasses last week. And now I can read without headaches. I'm catching up on what I love to do and I'm finally able to work on myself in peace. (Dr. Phil is great! I'm starting on Self Matters because I have to fix myself before I can look at fixing my marriage much more.)
Okay, long enough. But I did think of 10! Go me! :) Some days it's a struggle to think of 1. Sometimes those blessings look like curses (especially my 2 1/2 year old and teething 5 month old, both boys!) But as I was thinking last night, it's not the boys that upset me, it's my inability to control their behavior that upsets me. So that puts the responsibility of it back on me, and frees them to just be blessings and the kids they were meant to be. If it's gonna change, I've gotta be the one to change because it's my issue, not theirs. All realizations that are slow in coming, but that's how I know it's real change and not mania, because it's taken a lot of trial and error and soul-searching to come to it. If it were mania, it would be flying out of my mouth and I wouldn't remember it in 10 minutes. (Kinda like everything else today. I think my med is causing short-term memory loss. Maybe that's just the two kids and no sleep, though.) 'k. I hope everybody else here has a great day!
Take care!
~ Kristin (AKA Aislinn)
kristinmmyers@hotmail.com
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Okay, I couldn't do this yesterday...but I can today. What a difference sleep and a day makes.
1. Meds - this is my number one thankful...if it weren't for meds, I wouldn't be here. Point blank...period. Meds have saved my life. I realize that others have helped...but its through my own inner strength and medication that I am still alive.
2. My dh...he is the greatest gift I have ever received.
3. My family...who drive me nuts(er)...but they are always there for me...no matter what.
4. My son...who keeps me young, though a bit insane. :)
5. My job...at which if I don't feel like working, I don't have to.
6. My faith in God...I pray for and receive the strength that keeps me alive.
7. My friends here...they are the only true friends I have or ever have had.
8. My dog...as funny as that sounds...she listens to me all the time, without contradicting me, lol, or thinking i'm crazy.
9. Having a reliable car...though I'm broke and will be for the next 2 months, and my rent is half short this month, I can now drive without being terrified...the money part will work out...it always does.
10. The fact that I can still be thankful. That says enough in and of itself. BP is sh*t and hard as heck to live with and deal with...but we aren't crazy, or insane (sometimes!!!) only ill. We can do just as much as anyone else. We should NOT undervalue ourselves because of our disorder, period.
ok ok...here's what I'm thankful for:
1. my parents....without them, the new daycare would cost us a fortune
2. my dh...for wanting to work things out and not drinking all week long (sad)
3. my kids...even tho they drive me nuts sometimes
4. my job....
5. that my car was not blowing up again (long story short, was down 1 1/2 quarts of oil)
6. hhhmmm...can't be thankful for taxes just yet...they are not done.
7. for all of you, you are an amazing support system, ALWAYS
8. OH !!
God could not be everywhere, so
it's a day late, but here goes;)
i'm thankful for...
1. my life
2. my kids (even if they do drive me nuts at times)
3. my job
4. my tdoc
5. my new pdoc
6. successful med combination!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7. my current menagerie...1 dog, 1 cat, 1 guinea pig, 2 bunnies
8. my new fur-baby that comes home tonight - 10 mo old german shepard
9.everyone here at this board who has stood by me and helped hold me up when i couldn't do it by myself.
10. the new man in my life;)
i think that's the first time in well over a year that i've been able to make it all the way to 10!
love u,
traci