Suzi

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Tue, 02-07-2006 - 11:58am

Hey honey!

I'm sorry I was'nt here when you posted...I know EXACTLY how you feel!!! I have gained 50 pounds that I have to GET OFF or I'm going to, well, I don't know what I"m going to do...but I so know what you are talking about.

I wish the Topamax would have helped more. Mine is kicking in today finally. I started 300 mgs 3 days ago, and it finally kicked in...I cannot stand the sight of food. It did this last time too. I am having to force myself to munch on pretzels right now. But I know I have to at least do that...or my body will go into starvation mode and hold on to all this FAT. Did the starvation thing for so long, I developed an eating disorder...anorexia...you can be anorexic and still overweight...I made a MESS of my metabolism...yeah, I lost weight...but it came back on...

I'm going walking twice a week with a friend/co-worker starting today...its cold as heck here...but we are going anyway...I have to do something physical in order to get my body toned and burn some calories. Its the only way I will lose weight for good. I know Topamax will help. But, its only temporary. I am trying SO hard not to put the emphasis on numbers, how much I weight...but on how my clothes fit, etc.

Anyway, I didn't mean to get all into it, but I wanted you to know you aren't alone and I TRULY UNDERSTAND where you are coming from.

I will be your diet/exercise buddy if you want.

Love,

Keli

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In reply to: keli003
Tue, 02-07-2006 - 12:07pm
that would be terrific...it's good to know the med has to "kick in" cause mine hasn't yet.
i did topomax but it made me depressed so he took me off.now it's zonegran.
you gave me hope!
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Tue, 02-07-2006 - 3:42pm

how much topamax were you taking? its a funny med...if you take too LITTLE it will make you depressed...if you take too MUCH it can do the same thing...you have to be on EXACTLY the right amount for your brain/body chemistry and its very finicky...anything a little bit off and it will send you spinning.

300 seems to be working really well for me...200 was BAD...and 100 was like taking sugar...nothing.

Zonegran...well, all I can say is good luck with it stabilizing you...its older, as you probably know...my pdoc spoke to me about it, but we went with others. Maybe its just what you need. You seem to have good pdocs now.

You have to KEEP HOPE. I, of all people, know just how hard that is. But that's why we are all here together. Right?

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In reply to: keli003
Tue, 02-07-2006 - 4:30pm

Suzi - I hope you did not feel like I was attacking you. I agreed that 30 pounds is a lot. That is what I gained. Maybe I worded it wrong. I am very sorry if I upset you. That was not my intention. My intention was to state no matter what you weigh is if is above what you normally weigh, it bothers you and that I understand that.

Sorry if it did not come across that way. I truly apoligize.

Missy

 
 
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Tue, 02-07-2006 - 4:47pm
no no no...it wasn't YOU who attacked me.
don't give it another thought.
still waiting for my zonegran to kick in.i swear the dr was so excited about this drug he was peeing his pants over it.
ok..i'm exaggerating.
i seem to be hungrier than ever tho!
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Tue, 02-07-2006 - 6:35pm
I am trying to decide what to tell pdoc to get her to increase my topamax, lol. I want the dosage Keli is on. Not this wimpy 50 mg twice a day, despite the fact that it seems to be all I need, LMAO.
 
 
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Tue, 02-07-2006 - 7:06pm
it supposedly makes you tired.
i adjusted pretty quickly but i remember my 1st day on a high dose i ran into a boyfriend that had really done me wrong & i fell on my face...TWICE.
the stuff i take is supposed to do the same.the part that worries me w/ zonegran is your supposed to watch out for a rash & i got the dreaded lamictal rash so i figure i'm fair game for a zonegran rash.
it's never easy.certainly not as easy as simply DIETING should be.
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Wed, 02-08-2006 - 8:16am

LMAO, Missy! I was on that dosage too...didn't do SQUAT for me, for stabilization or weight loss either. Pdoc said it wouldn't for rapid cycling...but you know how fast I cycle...over 4 times a day sometimes....YUCK! You don't ever want to go there...I'd rather be fat that have that...however, the Topamax really really really helps the cycling.

Love you