we're all a mess!at leAst we're doing it

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we're all a mess!at leAst we're doing it
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Thu, 02-09-2006 - 12:17pm
together!
the school nurse keeps calling me to pick up my kids when they so much as sneeze & then the teachers are threatening to leave them back...even the 2nd grader!
they are in 3 different afterschool programs at 3 different times & suddenly we're not alllowed to park in front of the school.there is no place else either.stress.stomachaches at pickup times.
i'm supposed to direct a weeklong camp during vacation & i'm praying no more than the 4 who signed up do,b/c i don't WANT TO DO IT.i really don't think i can,i don't think it'll be worth it monetarily & if the counselor i asked to help even shows up i'll have to give him most of my paycheck.if he doesn't i don't know how i'll manage kids for 6 hours a day by myself.ugh.i'm sick thinking about it
i think i resent that i wasn't consulted about what my needs were for the camp or if i even wanted to do it during winter break.i want to be well into next week so i can just cancel the whole darn thing & the 4 mothers who signed up can curse me out if they please.
i definately feel overwhelmed..by the house the kids the camp & school.
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Thu, 02-09-2006 - 1:09pm

Hey Suz,

As with being BP, when you get overwhelmed, those of us with Borderline can get way out of whack...you have to try to find some semblance of control over those situations...yes, this IS coming from me. I don't know how you can do this. I have to figure out the same thing with my situations. There are ways to do this. If the camp thing is too much, tell them NO YOU CANNOT DO IT. They can figure something else out. So what if they get mad at you.

Hang in there, and if you need to talk more, get it out.

Love and Hugs,

Keli

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Thu, 02-09-2006 - 2:17pm
are you borderline AND bp?
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Thu, 02-09-2006 - 2:45pm

Yep...throw in PTSD, ADHD, and others in for good measure. That's me. I get you, I understand. Its not easy, but it can be dealt with, as long as you understand which piece of pie you are dealing with at any given time...and at most times, its a BIG OLE PIECE OF all of them.

Keep talking it out...its the only way to gain understanding and then peace.

Like me for instance...this morning, I was dealing with BPD. Not Bipolar. I feel better now...but it wasn't a mood swing. It was a borderline episode, continued over from last night. I ALWAYS have money problems...this is nothing new to me...it didn't trigger anything but a pouty little girl angry "i didn't get my way" thing last night. I can't continue to allow that to happen. THAT IS CLASSIC BORDERLINE TRAITS. I have to act like a grown up and not the child that I continue to want to be. Its not allowable anymore.

Sometimes, with BPD, you have to give yourself (or have someone give you) a GOOD kick in the you know where.

I have TO STOP FREAKING FEELING DANG SORRY FOR MYSELF and get the heck on with it. Ya know what I'm saying? This too, is borderline.

Talk. I'll help you understand.

Borderline causes us to think in ONLY black and white. No gray areas. We either like it or hate it...we either live or die...we either are crazy or not...happy or not...hate you or love you...etc. And that is NOT normal thinking. That kind of thinking CAN be reprogrammed, but it is HARD WORK.

Hugs.