My first time on this board, and nervous

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My first time on this board, and nervous
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Tue, 02-14-2006 - 2:50am
I am not new to ivillage, but new to this board. I have bipolar disorder and OCD.
I have been diagnosed with bipolar for 2 years only, but OCD since 1998. My doc has
prescribed me for 2 meds. One for the OCD and one for the bipolar. Celexa for the
OCD and Trileptal for my Bipolar. She has tried to add 2 others for the bipolar.
These seem to {my words here} turn me into a zombie. I am too tired to do any thing.
Not even get out of bed some days is worth it. I refuse to live this way. I just plain
will not live that way. My doctor tells me that I must control the Bipolar. But
the meds make worn me feel worn out. I actually thought that it was chronic fatigue disease. There is no sympathy for this predictement. And Its not good for a marrige.
My appoint to see her again is march 13th. I missed this months appointment. I wish to
somehow tell her, That there must be another way, I have a life to live and errans to
run and a house to run. There are no maids here to help out, no children and a husband who works very hard. Also, What kind of life is it that I feel worse than death all day long. Does anyone else have these problems? Have you had success in turning your
life around? I am try to use my faith, {I am Buddhist and also to meditate}. I have
started to add exercise as well. I am overweight, and I will not take litthum, Or how ever you spell it. I already have a weight problem. I don't need a medicine that some put on weight while taking it. I am tired of trying to think out this situation. I am sick of thinking of just me.

My my pen to your heart.

Anna's Hummingbird

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 7:59am

Hello and welcome...I recognize you from the Depression board, and I'm glad you decided to come over here and post. Having Bipolar is hard enough...treating Bipolar is yet another story. Trileptal made me tired too. I can relate to what you said about always thinking of you, always thinking of being BP. Its all I've done for almost 5 years now. Its not easy, its not fun...but maybe you can talk to your doctor about different meds when you go in March.

You gotta hang in there, and fight in order to beging having any control over BP, but it can be done. Do you see a therapist?

I'm sure the other ladies here will post to you with better answers...I'm not doing very well today, sorry. I'll be back to talk more with you later.

Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 9:15am

Hi and Welcome !!!


Please don't be nervous, the women here are wonderful, very understanding and loving.


You sound very strong to me.

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Registered: 07-24-2003
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 11:27am

Welcome to the board. I am so sorry you are struggling so much with controlling your BP - sometimes it can be like that, especially if you aren't on the right med / meds.

I have to say that I LOVE love love lithium. I did not gain ANY weight when I went on it, and it quickly brings my BP under control. After a few weeks, I don't have any side effects at all. I also normally take topamax to help with my bp and to control my migraines. Topamax not only helps my bp and migraines, it helps me to control my weight - sodas taste awful and I am just not hungry very often. It doesn't always have that affect, but is common. I am off all my meds right now (and for the past few months) because I am trying to conceive.

Work with your pdoc. Also, ask about natural methods to aid in making your meds work. While I am off my meds I am taking flaxseed oil suppliments, which are helping also. I also use a form of the ADD/ADHD diet to help maintain my moods. NONE of the things I am doing will control my bp as well as the meds, or forever even, but it helps. DO NOT try things without checking with your pdoc or pharmacist to avoid drug interactions that are not beneficial.

There are many of us here that live basically normal lives. I think of my BP in the terms that it is NO different then a diabetic's life with insulin. We have meds to take, and our diet can severely influence our health. But, it is controllable.

Good luck and keep posting!
Tracey

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Tue, 02-14-2006 - 11:36am

Hello and welcome. Sounds to me like you need a new doctor. Why does your doctor refuse to listen to you? Does he/she not think it is the meds? Could it be some depression?

I don't know. I am not an expert. Just really wanted to welcome you to the board. Hope you get some help and answers soon.

Missy

 
 
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Registered: 10-02-2003
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 11:55am

Welcome Sunnymornings to this board.


First off, Bp is NOT "ALL" you are. There are many characteristics that you are. It is easy to get wrapped up in just concentrating on the BP aspect of us, but try not to do that to yourself. It will limit your growth. It has taken me forever to get that through my head and I am still working on it and I am sure I will struggle with positive thinking everyday, after all I am human and so are you. Some people who don't have depression or BP have bad days and things that way them down. True, mental illness just makes us feel even worse having to deal with those issues but it can be done. The other hard part is finding a med that works for you. We are all different on how meds work on us. I agree with you on the Lithium, I too have weight issues and refuse to take it, but also because I have a bad kidney.


Meditation is wonderful. I have been doing that also for about 3 months. I did it before awhile ago but stopped and it is better to do it than not to. I have been told exercise it so good because it releases endorphines that help relieve pain which makes you feel better. Kind of like a natural high. I am working on getting to a gym that I have been talking about for some time now but haven't got off my butt to go. I need to walk the walk and stop just talking about it.


I hope you get meds soon that will make you feel better and not all drugged up. I won't take the drugs if they make me too drugged up because it just makes my life that much harder and I get more depressed. I have noticed in time

 
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Tue, 02-14-2006 - 4:21pm
I will see her on 3-13-06 and I will explain to her like I am telling you now. Then I will know how to proceed. Thanks for inviting me. This board seems like home now. Sunnymorning

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Anna's Hummingbird

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Tue, 02-14-2006 - 4:23pm
thank you I will look into this. Sincerely, Sunny

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Anna's Hummingbird

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Tue, 02-14-2006 - 4:24pm
Thank you. I do feel so welcome. Thank you, Thank you. Sunny

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Anna's Hummingbird

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Tue, 02-14-2006 - 4:28pm
Yes, yes. I thank you Keli. If weren't for you, I would not have known about this board.
Yes I have both. But the healing people on this board have done more for me today to lift my spirits. Thank you so much. Sunny

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Anna's Hummingbird