My brother called...
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| Tue, 02-14-2006 - 12:15pm |
I haven't talked to him since Christmas...
I'm so triggered...all I can see is flashbacks of when we were little...won't go into details...
I have to meet with my boss in about an hour, maybe less...
I've been crying and can't talk much or I will start again...need to take an Ativan, but I am already SO tired. Wanna go home early, but I have stuff to do. Busy.
k, no more...gotta go smoke. can't stop the thoughts...brain won't stop...u guys have no idea how freaking crazy i really am.
is today some kinda of trigger day for me that i am blocking out???? why do i freak out today???? i wish it would just stop...i don't wanna lose it at work...and i am so losing it.
tracey...can't talk on the phone...office mate is here and i am crying just thinking of talking to you...love you

Honey, I rememer some about your brother and what happend to you guys. Maybe you should put off talking to your brother for a day or so. It doesn't seem that today is the day to have to deal with that issue. Don't put more on yourself when today is already unbearable.
Hugs-Tina
Hey Keli, I'm sorry I don't remember what the trigger is with your brother, but I can tell you that I'm still haunted from having both of my brothers and my mother stay with me during the Christmas holidays. Smoke. That usually helps. I agree, if you can put off talking to your brother, please do. No need to be a hero, unless he's calling with some sort of emergency.
You do sound troubled today, Keli. Hang in there. I'm sending you hugs, prayers and positive thoughts. Mo.
hey girl...
sorry i wasnt here earlier...
babes, he's always trouble anyway, never mind when he's triggering you. you're already having trouble with the ptsd this week anyway. leave it alone until your stronger. even then keep him at a (looong) arm's distance.
god, why do you always have it so tough?!
sending you warm fuzzy hugs,
love ya!