just unable to handle things anymore

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Registered: 11-14-2005
just unable to handle things anymore
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Thu, 02-16-2006 - 7:39am

My name is Lauren, and I am 28. I am married w/three children. My husband is a full time college student in a bachelor's program and I am a nurse. I have been unable to work due to panic attacks over the past week. Before that, I've had about 30 jobs in 6 years. I'm also borderline personality disorder, and I always think someone's talking about me, or something and I quit a job. My husband wants me to go on disability, but doesn't understand that we won't get much. I feel very alone and my family doesn't speak to me anymore...long story, we were never close....the meds i take are klonopin, prolixin, seroquel and lexapro. Dr. won't increase the klonopin anymore, i'm on 0.5mg three times daily. i just need a friend right now or something, i'm so overwhelmed and i thought maybe if i posted here someone would understand and be my friend.

sorry so long
Lauren

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Thu, 02-16-2006 - 8:27am

Hi and Welcome !!!


Yep...we sure do understand...and omg your post was not long at all, and even if it was, don't be sorry.


The women here are awesome !!

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Thu, 02-16-2006 - 8:28am

Hey Lauren! Of course I'll be your friend...guess what? I'm borderline too...and I totally understand what you mean about feeling like someone is talking about you...I ALWAYS feel that way about work...I hate them all here, because when they get in their little "groups" I just KNOW they're whispering about me...ugh. Anyway, I'm Keli...I'm 35 and work full time at a job I've been at for 18 or so years...so I am at this point I'm basically maintaining day to day, but having a bit of difficulty doing so.

I'm also a rapid cycler...which isn't much fun either.

Just wanted to say hello and let you know I'm really glad you are here!

Keep posting, okay?

Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 11-14-2005
Thu, 02-16-2006 - 9:22am

Thanks for the support ladies!
I drove about 10 miles to go get an application for a rental house for my family. we have to be out of our apt by the end of the month.....stressful, huh? Well i was so proud of myself for driving all the way there with just my youngest daughter and they were closed, so back to being ticked off again i go. my husband doesn't understand why the slightest things set me back and also why i sleep all the time. I go to bed about 5 at night. does anyone else do that? What is the reason we do it? i just want the day to be over with and not have to function anymore.

looking forward to getting to know all of you.

Lauren in Florida

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Thu, 02-16-2006 - 9:43am

Hey again Lauren!

I go to bed VERY early too...Dunno why, guess I'm just like you...tired of the stresses of the day...and its winter, and gets dark too early...I rapid cycle, so my brain is so tired of functioning...but then I just lay there and listen to tv all night cuz i can't sleep...I've started exercising after work, so maybe that will help. And OMG, any STRESS totally FREAKS me out...TOTALLY. I have a freakout every day...but my Ativan helps sometimes. LOL.

I'm in Florida too, which part are you in?

Hugs!

Keli

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Registered: 11-14-2005
Thu, 02-16-2006 - 9:49am

i am in safety harbor, an itty bitty tampa bay area town. where are you?

Lauren

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Thu, 02-16-2006 - 9:55am
Up north, lol...Tallahassee...hate it, love it...