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| Sat, 02-18-2006 - 3:21pm |
cause i still got the blues...last night i went to rehearsal & i met the woman that everyone said was my double.
i know this is mean...but it depressed me.not only was she quite unattractive...she had no stage presence.that's MY doppleganger?oh help!
so i get on my scale after going to bed hungry for a whole week....not an OUNCE!
WHAT IS GOING ON??????????this is just creepy.especially since dr. charming swears it's not the meds.if there's one thing i've always been good at,it's dieting.just dressing for the darn rehearsal was a chore.i am hideous.
the creepo boss called me while i was out.i was so rattled since i figured i was finished with him till May that i couldn't sleep.at first i asked my h to deal w/ him but i realized that was wrong.so,i did the next "mature" thing & just haven't returned his call.
now my stomach hurts b/c i have to make an avon delivery to the customer from hell...who bounced a check over a month ago & has left me w/ a second order for over 3 weeks.which means i pasid 150$ out of my own pocket.she gave me a terrible story about her daughter's health & i feel bad but it still doesn't mean i should pay for her avon.when i told her so she got nasty.now i have to see her face to face & i hate confrontation.
when i come home,i'm taking 2 klonopin even tho i'm not supposed to!they have less calories than wine!
i know this is mean...but it depressed me.not only was she quite unattractive...she had no stage presence.that's MY doppleganger?oh help!
so i get on my scale after going to bed hungry for a whole week....not an OUNCE!
WHAT IS GOING ON??????????this is just creepy.especially since dr. charming swears it's not the meds.if there's one thing i've always been good at,it's dieting.just dressing for the darn rehearsal was a chore.i am hideous.
the creepo boss called me while i was out.i was so rattled since i figured i was finished with him till May that i couldn't sleep.at first i asked my h to deal w/ him but i realized that was wrong.so,i did the next "mature" thing & just haven't returned his call.
now my stomach hurts b/c i have to make an avon delivery to the customer from hell...who bounced a check over a month ago & has left me w/ a second order for over 3 weeks.which means i pasid 150$ out of my own pocket.she gave me a terrible story about her daughter's health & i feel bad but it still doesn't mean i should pay for her avon.when i told her so she got nasty.now i have to see her face to face & i hate confrontation.
when i come home,i'm taking 2 klonopin even tho i'm not supposed to!they have less calories than wine!

Suzi,
Hopefully the people who thought this woman was your double were looking at positive things you share and maybe right now because you feel so bad, you can't see them?
actually it's my big stupid boss that's really stressing me.i found out inadvertently that he has already scheduled me for work when i have vacation AND production week.i am contracted to work with him during the summer & nothing more...i have told him i have no access to counselors during the winter & cannot do a 6 hour camp on my own.besides he talked me into xmas work & i cancelled my plans & then he cancelled my camp at the last minute.
my dad says he needs me more than i need him(he has no one else to do the theater camp)so i should NOT allow him to intimidate me.he's right.
with all the demands & the money i had to shell out to my help last year i'm really wondering if i want to take it on this summer at all.my h said it made me happy....but it was also brand new last year.now i KNOW what an *** i'm working for.
this surely will take up my therapy over the next few month lol!