Tracey

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tracey
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Tue, 02-21-2006 - 8:21am

Just wanted to let you know I was better today. And get your opinion. What do you think about my calling my "old" therapist and getting an appointment? Should I do that, or call a new one? THe old one went way too fast for me. Do you think she would slow down, or should I get a new one and start over? I think that's my favorite option...but I wanted to see what you thought. I just need more therapy than just doing the EMDR right off the bat...and that's what she did. It freaked me out...

Anyway, I'm better...pdoc did call me back, but it was 5:30 and I was gone home. She'll call again today. I did increase my Topa last night and maybe that's what helped, I dunno. Its hard to tell. Didn't add the Lithium til I talk to pdoc, in case of blood work, etc.

I have to be away from my parents again for a while. They have stressed me out to the point almost that I ended up i/p. That's mostly what did it. Why else would I be okay again two days after being at their house every weekend for months again? This happened the last time I did that. Just don't know again how to tell them, cuz they have given me money again, and I feel obligated.

Today is exercise day. I've gone twice now. It feels so good once I get there and do it...I have to be careful though, lmao, there are some really cute guys there...

I'm not manic, I promise, just finally feel like laughing a bit. Just had to throw that out there...lol. Maybe if I laugh and joke I won't cycle down...its worth a try.

I am trying...I am fighting...you know that I always do...I just have those freakouts...I hate them...but I have them, and I have to have them apparently.

Hope all is well with you.

Love you.

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Registered: 07-24-2003
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 02-21-2006 - 9:00am

Keli:

Not sure if I will have time today to post so wanted to check in before I go to work.

I am SO happy you feel better today. I am extremely proud of you for wanting to go and exercise today - the exercise will release endorphins which will keep your mood up.

I agree you should find a new therapist and start over. You weren't comfortable with the old therapist and her methods so it is not going to be effective treatment for you. Ask the new pdoc if he can recommend someone.

I also agree that your parents trigger you at least 1/2 the time. You should not feel obligated to them - explain that you are really struggling and need some time to get back on your feet. They should feel obligated as your parents to help you to do that by respecting your needs.

Have to head out to work now, take care and I'll ttyl!

Love ya!
Tracey