Tina

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tina
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Tue, 02-21-2006 - 8:26am

Thank you so much for your friendship and caring...your post and email meant a lot to me...I'm better today...I'm really hoping it lasts for a bit...I need a break from all this so badly. You're an amazing person and I love you. I have to get off here cuz my boss just got in, but I'll talk to you again soon.

How are things with Billy? How is journaling going? I think of you often at night when I get ready to go to sleep and think about writing...

Keli

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Registered: 10-02-2003
In reply to: keli003
Tue, 02-21-2006 - 6:22pm

I see in your other post/thread that you got a hold of the pdoc and they helped you confirm what you already know. But if the increase in Topamax doesn't work and adding the Lithium again doesn't help then call them back and let them know. I hope the med change works and I hope it works for a long time, not just a day or 2 or a week or 2.


Things with Billy are going ok. He gets on my nerves sometimes and he has mood swings that get to me but he is a good guy and he puts up with my butt so I guess it's even. He gave me a real nice Valentines gift. He bought me a three stone diamond ring. It is so beautiful.


Journaling is going good too. Sometimes it can be hard to find the words you want to express but I get something down. The negative and positive lists are going pretty good too, for now. Wait until I am in a dark place and all seems doomed. Hopefully I won't see a dark place again for a long time. Never will be ok with me too, but I think that's asking for too much with bipolar. Seeing what you go through, I cherish all the days I am stable. I get depressed all the time but it is at a level that is manageable.


Warmer weather is coming and I am starting to walk in my neighborhood. Sometimes I take my dog. I figure since I am soooooo out of shape I will start walking and then when I feel more shape for the gym I will join. I can save some money for a while with walking.


I think I need to plan my meals for the week. Eat three times a day and a low cal/low fat snack at night. Right now I am just waking up and saying I need to eat something and not knowing what I want which makes me make bad choices. I don't know how to make myself lose this weight but I have to keep trying because now I am about 250 and for me and my height that is horrible. I have 100 lbs to lose. But for now I would like to lose 5-7 lbs a month. And for goodness sake get my eating more healthy.


You keep hanging in there and always know I am here for you.


Love ya- Tina