update on me (and dh, and bp and,,,,,)
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| Fri, 02-24-2006 - 4:38pm |
Lets see, where do I start.
First off, I went off the gluten free diet because it was adding to my depression. I was recommended a book that will supposedly commit me to the gluten free lifestyle once I read it and am reading it now. Only time will tell, I guess. Don't feel any better or any worse by eating gluten.
Secondly, I have taken every online test I can find for bp and acknowledge the 3 other dx I have for bp and am trying to accept that yes I do I have bp and will have it forever. In addition, that I will be a walking medicine cabinet too. I am really nervous about my trip to Vegas when my family sees how much medicine I do take.
Next, dh is still being a jerk. I have done the things he asked, which after asking, he acknowledged that I have. He is still acting all grouchy and unhappy and is currently napping, um --- wtf, you can but I can't? He has not called a counselor despite saying that he would. I have no idea at this point what is going. He was sick until Wed. but said he was better Wed night, apoligized and I thought today was going to be so much better, but no such luck. I don't know whether he is still sick or not. I can't get a straight answer from him. In the meantime, I applied online for on job, emailed my resume to one and will be faxing my resume out to another in just a little bit. I figure it will take some time for me to find a job and it won't hurt to look. I don't have to take it, but until things straighten out here, I want to start covering my bases. Is that bad? It is not that I want my marriage to fail, I definately don't. I just don't feel like I have any control. Dh is the one so unhappy and he seems unwilling to do anything about it.
Tonight I am going out with my friend that I tried to go out with last weekend, so I am looking forward to that. Sorry I have been so scarce this week, I had a couple projects at home I was working on, Yuck. But they are done for now so more playtime for me. Yeah.
Sorry this got so long.
Missy


Missy,
Who says you have to tell your family how many meds you're taking?!
Not going out after all. Dh laid a guilt trip on me about chosing a friend over him. Saying it was his one night off and he did not want to watch the kids. Ugh. Now he is making me dinner and acting all sweet and nice. But I am mad.
Missy
i don't understand that & i've heard a couple of women say it.
it's just that my mother always seemed offended when i napped.these meds we take are very sedating & besides,some people NEED a nap.my mothers new husband naps everyday wouldn't you know...
do your h's tell you you CAN'T sleep when youre tired?????
Missy,
Maybe that's just his way of saying he's sorry & just using the babysitting as an excuse---heaven forbid he should let real loving emotions show.
It ended up being an OK evening. He made dinner and then cleaned it all up. He watched tv downstairs and I snuggled with the little kids upstairs until they fell asleep then went down and watched tv with him.
He called this morning and asked me to come to his work for pizza night at the fire station tonight with the boys, which he NEVER includes us on, so maybe we are making some progress.
Missy
Sounds like a winner to me!
Hugs,
Marci