Obsessing. The beginning of mania?
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| Wed, 03-01-2006 - 9:22am |
Hi all! I've been here, reading thru everyone's stuff and responding occasionally, but overall I've been feeling pretty well. In fact, I'm still feeling pretty well, but noticing that obsession is starting to creep in.
I've done a smashing job of not obsessing over "someone" for the past few months. I've actually been counting days, and I made it to 90 and was doing really well. For some reason, for the past 10 days (that brings us to 100 days total) I've been back to "thinking" about this someone. Not obsessing, just thinking. For the first 90 days, whenever thoughts of this person interrupted my thinking, I said a prayer and pushed them away and moved on to the next task.
Yesterday, I found myself looking around in mapquest for this person's address. I have a new client who lives in the same town, so I started poking around presumably to get my client's address. I'm trying to trick myself! Like I don't realize that I'm not really looking for my new client's address, I'm looking for this person's address. This is dangerous stuff for me. This person is also in the process of a divorce and I've been trying to control my impulse to dig around and find out the status of the divorce, who's representing them, etc.
These are the types of thoughts that have sometimes preceded my manic episodes. Now I haven't had a manic episode in a few months - my meds are doing their job. Before anyone makes a "medication" suggestion, I'm curious whether anyone else sees triggers like this that signal the onset of a manic episode, and if they have any "tricks" to avoid the manic episode and pull themselves out of it before it sets in.
Thanks for listening. Love, Mo.


Mo
I don't have any info/ideas for you, sorry....just wanted to send big (((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))
God could not be everywhere, so
((((((((Mo))))))) The only things that signal hypomania for me are increased energy (I'm always fatigued otherwise) and talkativeness. Sometimes if I'm just talkative but stable, it'll bring on a manic attack. It's kinda funny that way. I usually go with it because I enjoy the energy and I need it to keep up with DS2. I would *think* that doing something opposite might help keep it away. If you feel like surfing for that address, go read a book. Go for a walk, get away from the computer. I know the urge can be overwhelming and almost like a drug addict needing a fix sometimes. (That's how my cravings get. I'm a sugar addict and I get majorly wanting sugar when I'm manic. That's why I'm 60 pounds overweight. But the cravings get so bad they wake me up at night, they're all-consuming, I'm shaky and irritable and actually go through physical withdrawal if I don't get sugar. It really
Mo,
It can be, but those are the kind that usually sneak up on you.
Hey Mo...
I completely CANNOT help you here...I go through this daily...but you know my stupid rapid cycling thing...anyway, I just wanted to say hi...and I agree with Marci...you have a hold on it right now...and that's a great sign. You're okay.
Hugs,
Keli