Manic Spending, get out of control!
Find a Conversation
Manic Spending, get out of control!
| Sun, 03-05-2006 - 11:44pm |
When I am in my manic stage, I can spend like there is no tomorrow! And I get so
embarassed. Its like I have no control. Thank heavens my hubby has hung in there with me.
We Recently got our income tax returns back with a little bit of money. He spent on me
a new pc and printer. I am struggling with all my might to control my desires.
I guess I have a internal Greedy nature. UGH!! We are trying to pay all of our bills
cause he is retiring soon. We just can not have a lot of bills hanging over our heads.
Cause San Francisco is a very high place to live.
I am in anxiety at the moment.
embarassed. Its like I have no control. Thank heavens my hubby has hung in there with me.
We Recently got our income tax returns back with a little bit of money. He spent on me
a new pc and printer. I am struggling with all my might to control my desires.
I guess I have a internal Greedy nature. UGH!! We are trying to pay all of our bills
cause he is retiring soon. We just can not have a lot of bills hanging over our heads.
Cause San Francisco is a very high place to live.
I am in anxiety at the moment.

BTDT!!!!
I too am a spender when I am manic.
Mel
Those who dance are considered insane by those who cannot hear the music. -George Carlin
The answer is ME OR THE HOUSE. I realize that this makes me greedy.
VERY GREEDY. And on my good days, I can say I don't need that. Otherwise
I chant very hard to not use my check card. I am making this my goal. ALong with
losing weight. I am Buddhist and I chant as a prayer. So far, My prayers are
sincere. The fact That I live in the burbs of San Francisco with no car. I must depend on friends and busses and Hubby. That leaves online spending. Now that can be
a problem. But, Since we don't use credit cards. When the bank account is low. Its out
or there is a overdraw. And a feeling of usedlessness that I hate.
This brings on a immediate depression. So I guess I must fight hard. Cause
I don't want anymore meds. Too many meds make me somebody else and take away my individualism. Or so it seems.
My my pen to your heart.
Hi,
I have never posted here before. Mainly I lurk here at night. Just wanted you to know that you are not alone. I spend the majority of my money online. Applied for a credit card without dh knowing. :-( I will spend day's obsessing over a handbag or jewelry. I mean visit the site at least 20 times a day to see if its still there for me to possibly buy. I was recently laid off so I should be spending my day looking for employment however my anxiety level is so high there is no way I could handle a job interview or be around people. The only positive about that is its keeping me away from the mall.
Thankfully I visit my doctor tomorrow and have made a list of my current issues. Although they always seem to remain the same.
Good luck to you and hopefully we will get this under control very soon!
Personally I froze my bank check card. We choose not to have credit cards. And the check card is so frozen and in bags. So I really can't see the number. And for me this is a accomplishment. But its just starting out for me. This controlling my desires. I know that 10 years ago, undiagnosed, I couldn't and didn't even try. I just did what I did, and cried afterward like there was no tomorrow. I have told my husband what has led to my spending habits. SO he will understand. And he still stands by me. Good luck. Sunny
My my pen to your heart.