Keli

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Keli
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Wed, 03-08-2006 - 12:02pm

How is everything going today? Are the meds working for you? I have been thinking about you. I have to go to my tdoc today. I don't feel like it tho...BLAH. I don't feel like driving. This is one of those days I feel I should stay home, but I better go. I have been feeling depressed. My pdoc uped my meds again. He is supprised I am able to handle the amount of Prozac I am on. He says my depression part of my bipolar must be really bad. But we are trying to keep me from becoming suicidal and out of the hospital. I hope it works because I don't want to go i/p. I usually get messed up this time of the year. Usually by April or May I am i/p. I am praying it doesn't happen.


TTYL- Tina

 
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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: firelightshimmer
Wed, 03-08-2006 - 1:56pm

Hey Tina,

I'm okay. I think (pray) the meds are starting to work. I am having a very hard time working, and I have a huge budget meeting tomorrow that i am totally not prepared for, but I'll fake it...anyway, I'm sorry that you are getting depressed. It sucks!!! I know you were already on a heavy dose of ad's. I hope the increases will help some. How are things at home? Any better, the same? I'm just trying so hard to be better...and its not easy. Its fighting a real battle, ya know? I am doing what I can...trying to not self-sabotage everything I do...trying to really think things through and not go all in a whirlwind through everything. Trying to stay calmer (very hard!). Trying to stay positive and happy (VERY VERY Hard!!!) lol. Life doesn't make it any easier to do this.

I'm trying not to get overwhelmed in looking toward the future all the time...only today. Doing only what I can for today.

I'm gaining weight back, but trying to not freak out about that too.

Keep me posted please, on how you are doing. I always think of you!

Keli

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Registered: 10-02-2003
In reply to: firelightshimmer
Wed, 03-08-2006 - 5:50pm

I know you are working so hard at making things better for yourself. It is a lot of work and I will be the first one in line rooting for you. Getting overwhelmed is one of my weaknesses. I look to far into the future and get stressed over what I can't and don't have control over yet. We only have control over the minute we are living in. Life likes to throw curve balls at us to keep us on our toes. I wish life would give us all a break.


Things at home are ok. I am going back to college in August. That is one of the things I am getting overwhelmed about when I think of all I need to do. And of course I don't just want an A.A. degree, I want a B.A. and then Masters in Addiction Counseling. After I am done with my A.A., which