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| Wed, 03-08-2006 - 3:21pm |
hi babes...
nothing new. boss went on vacation though!!! :) we are ALL happy about that.
still being the life of the party picking on the new girls. cant seem to stop myself cuz they are so friggin stupid. its like little beth uncensored. screamed in a sales rep's face and told him to kiss my ***. sending stuff back to people who f'd things up "WTF is this?!?!?!?" written out on it. lol!!! im having a blast. little beth is fun.
totally out of character for sweet, quiet me, who NEVER says boo to anybody!
ooooh bought shoes online last night. they are SO cute. omg, i spent like a weeks pay on them! im so screwed! good thing for credit cards, lol. couldnt resist though,lol! having them shipped express, should be here tomorrow. cant wait.
still NOT sleeping. that's when the shoe shopping started. it's SO not like me to wake up so early. i always just stayed up REALLY late, and then woke up when it was time for work. now im staying up really late, and waking up really early too. maybe too much a/d between the traz and wellbutrin. the traz may be having the opposite effect. tough crap it's giving me more energy during the day, and ANYTHING is better than being depressed!!!
im watching ellen. and im wondering what the suicide rate is for audience members that go home and see themselves on tv and kill themselves out of embarrasment when they see themselves dance. i know i would. its hilarious.
omg, my stomach hurts SO bad. i drank a 32 oz ice coffee, and i feel so sick. but it'll be worth it. not losing as fast as i thought i would though. grrrrr....
saw you over at the bpd board. i cant seem to form intelligent thoughts enough to post or answer anything. so i just lurk instead. it makes my head hurt.
anyway, hope you're ok today. have you looked into finding a tdoc yet?
love you!

hi baby girl...
how was your night? im not doing so hot. im still feeling really sick. i cant even drink water anymore, and i need to to stay hydrated. and im having trouble thinking straight. and knowing im not going to be able to sleep tonight makes me feel even more sick. what am is supposed to do?
now i have to force myself to eat the little tiny bit that i do, because anything at all that i eat me so sick. it makes my stomach hurt so bad for hours after eating. i dont know, maybe it's psychological, or mabye my stomach has shrunk that much. im still so sick after just eating the chicken out of a smart ones dinner today. it's easier not to eat, cuz at least i can deal with hunger pains.
maybe i'm messing up how my body metabolizes my meds, and that's why my mood and sleep has been such a mess. maybe even the topamax appetite suppressant has gone loopy too.
im so sorry. i know this is all i go on about. im freaking obsessed, i cant stop. its all i think about. ive weighed myself SIX TIMES since i got home from work. if i weren't so friggin fat and overweight, i'd be worried about myself. even if i wanted to stop, i wouldnt know how.