A depression visit to me

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Registered: 10-02-2003
A depression visit to me
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Wed, 03-15-2006 - 9:23am

I have been so depressed the past few days. I shouldn't be but I am. It has been hard to get out of bed. I got up this morning...didn't feel like it...UHG and went to the grocery store and to pick my Rx's. I got to the store at 7 am and was home by 9am. I feel like going back to bed but I can't because I have a tdoc appt. at 1:30, which means I have to leave my house by 12:30. I don't feel good physically either. My shoulder really hurts BAD. The doctor won't give me a cortisone shot b/c I am so young and it messes up the tendons...whatever...I am in pain. I can't sleep right b/c if I lay on my shoulder it hurts and if I lay on my other side it pulls my shoulder and I can only lay on my back and then my back hurts...I can't win...sigh. Then there is something going on with my stomach. I have been nausious and breaking out in cold sweats today.


I am sick of taking meds. I feel like a big pill popper. I wish I had some pain pills to pop right now for this pain. I am sick of my weight. I guess you can say I am just plain sick today. Thanks for listening to me whine. I am so tired I want to go to bed.


Love you all- Tina

 
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Registered: 04-06-2005
Wed, 03-15-2006 - 9:55am

hang in there sweetie...it will get better.


i'm not familiar with your shoulder problems....what kind of doctor are you seeing?

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Wed, 03-15-2006 - 10:25am

I see an orthopedic. I have impingment syndrome and I have a spur that is "hooked" in my rotator cuff and it is sooooo painful. I have to go for physical therapy, but I won't be able to start until April. After I am done that , if, it doesn't work, which I doubt it will...I will have to have surgery. No one wants surgery but if after I heal from it and if it means I won't have anymore pain, than I say go ahead doc.


Thanks Donna-


Tina

 
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 03-15-2006 - 10:41am

Tina...you should know by now honey that you cannot pick and choose BP moods. So stop apologizing for your depression...k? I know exactly how you feel. For some odd reason, BP is picking on us BIG TIME right now!!! Lots of us are REALLY struggling with depression. I'm usually VERY sensitive to a/d's and this time Wellbutrin ain't doing jack! Well, maybe a little, cuz I'm not suicidal or anything...but its that darn level of depression that makes taking a damn shower hard, so I can totally relate!!! I need to wash my hair every day now, and HA HA HA!!! Not. I have to FIGHT to wash it every other day...and then its FORCING myself to do it...thank GOD I have a job...if I didn't, I don't know what I would do...it literally keeps me going.

If I didn't have to get up to come to work, I would stay in bed, all day and all night...doing nothing...period. So, try TRY TRY TRY to get up out of bed...take a shower (HA! yes, i know...) and at least sit on your bed...do some drawings...you LOVE your drawings...do a faery for me...I love faeries...I'll even pay you for it (well, when I get some $$, LOL). Fight it, Tina...you can fight it...I've seen you fight it many times before...you've helped me fight through them, so let's get you through this one...

You can start tomorrow...but you MUST get up in the morning and either draw or write. Write me a letter (on paper, not computer...). Or draw something for me...Do something with your hands...(if you aren't in too much pain...). Put on some decent clothes (if you're like me, you'll put on the grossest thing you have...ugh). Do your hair. Even if you're sitting in your room. Plan your meals for the day. Go for a walk. Sit outside in the sun. Tanned bodies look better than pale!!! :) Take breaks, but only for 10 minutes or so at a time. Then do something else. I don't care what.

We'll get through this, I promise. Post back to me.

Love you.

Keli

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Registered: 10-02-2003
Wed, 03-15-2006 - 10:58am

I am trying to stay awake so I can go see tdoc...God, I want to go to bed so bad. I have been drawing at night to keep me busy. That is when I want to eat. I draw really crappy when I am depressed. I will do it tho. I have to go to the stupid bank before I go to tdocs. I think I am going to leave early and wait in my car until my appt.time. If I don't go soon I won't go. I should be back before 4:30 and I will let you know how it went. I have to stop at the craft store for Billy on my way home. I feel like doing that like