Goals and Bipolar

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Goals and Bipolar
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Thu, 03-16-2006 - 10:54pm
I am going thru a bit of hell right now. My Pdoc, has agreed not add other meds to
my list to be taken each day. Before the 4 at night was ok, because I went on to bed eventuallay. It was ok to be tired and sleepy at night. This was natural. But during the day especially the morning its frightening to be dizzy and tired. I am incapable of doing what must be done.
I am beginning to think. The meds will never get straighten out. And I WILL ETERNALLY
TIRED WITH A QUIZZY STOMACH AND DIZZY HEAD.
So I was thinking along these lines. I have a goal of controling my bipolar and my ever arthritis and not either medical condition control me. I want to be me. To be artistic again, and to exercise and go places and be with my friends and enjoy my hubby. I do not want to be a prisnor of depression or energy manic. In my case I am supposidly only borderline bipolar with OCD. I do not understand why I have to medicate like someone with major bipolar. Anyway, Does anyone else have goals regarding there medical condition?

My my pen to your heart.

Anna's Hummingbird

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 03-17-2006 - 6:36am

I totally agree with you. My bipolar symptoms are not that bad compared to others yet I am heavily medicated the majority of the time. SO much so that my arm shakes most of the time. I hate it. I need to do something different too. Just not sure what. I will be interested in what everyone else has to say. At one point my goal was to not need meds at all, but I don't see that happening. One mood stablizer and one ad sounds good though.

Missy

 
 
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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 7:20am

{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}

Take heart! It may seem like now you will never have your bp under control, but you will. It takes a few years to find the right meds, but people do, and things will be much better then. Remember, there is a light at the end of the tunnel! I for one never thought I'd find the right treatment for me, but I have, and now I do pretty well. You can too!

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Beth "Petrouchka"

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Fri, 03-17-2006 - 8:13am

Beth is right (and may I say you sound so good right now !!!

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Sat, 03-18-2006 - 2:57am

I hear what you're saying about the meds. It's like the meds are controlling us, stopping us from being genuine. "If I wasn't on meds, would I react the same way when ____." Or "Would I feel the same way when ____ happens if I didn't have to take happy pills." ?? Personally, I think I found my "magic" drug. The Depakote is finally doing what I want - stablizing me - without making me really tired or really dizzy. I think I've found it! YEAH! But now pdoc is taking me off my a/d. He wants me on ONLY the Depakote. I'm a little scared. I'm afraid I won't be manic at all, which is my favorite state of being. Plus, I'm at a dangerous place for my depression to come back, or to strengthen. *poss trig* (On the 7th I OD'd and went i/p for a week. I'm still not totally recovered physically or emotionally.)


Anyway. I think you're on the right track. You sound like you're otherwise doing well. Maybe it's not all of the meds that need changing, maybe it's just a little something here or there? Good luck and keep us posted!

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