Hello All

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Hello All
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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 8:24am

From a hot sunny Florida...Its been mid upper 80s here for a week or so...very nice...you know I love it! My BP is stable...even stable under some major stress the last couple of days...so I'm glad of that. The stress is under control now, and I'm still okay. It was really major, marital stuff...but everything is okay now...I finally heard the words, spoken in anger, that I never thought I would hear...about my Bipolar being the cause of everything. Every problem, every stress, everything. That stung, big time. But I should have seen it coming eventually. Its not true, and I know that...and dh knows and admits that its not true. But it was iffy there for the last couple of days.

Even if things hadn't worked themselves out, I would have been okay and I knew it. I'm not saying it wouldn't have hurt. But It wouldn't have broken me. That's how I know I'm better. No, there is no cure for BP. But I'm finally on the right track to real stability. Stability doesn't mean I'm perfect. But in contrast to how I WAS, I'm so much much better. Its been this way for about 2 weeks or more now.

Oh, AND, this is PMS week. For me to have the stress with Eric I had this week, and still be okay (I did cry and scream!!! LOL) I'm doing well.

The key for me, with meds, is LESS IS MORE. I'm only taking 300 Lithium, and 300 Trileptal with my other stuff. Not all those heavy doses they wanted me to take that zombied me out and took away my personality. Hate that. Pdoc basically said its my body and brain and its up to me. That I know by now what works and what doesn't.

I've not gained any weight, in fact, I've lost 2-3 pounds finally. Not much, but a start.

I haven't been posting much, I know. But I read all of your posts every day. I keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. I am trying very hard to keep myself stable. More so now than ever before. Its HARD work. You can't expect the meds to do it all for you.

I love you all!

Keli

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Registered: 11-18-2003
In reply to: keli003
Thu, 04-06-2006 - 9:44am

((((((((((((((((keli))))))))))))))) you sound terrific! i'm so happy for you. you have been deserving of stability for so long and now you are finally well on your way.


while we haven't had 80s here, the weather has been decent. so i think that's helped my mood. still fighting a low-level depression but i think that has more to do with xh than anything and hopefully soon that will be resolved. now i'm just insanely busy with softball and baseball season well underway. which i think is helping to keep the depression at bay as well.


i think the topomax is starting to work as far as the appetite thing goes. i'm not nearly as hungry as i was before which is good. i really need to drop the excess weight i put on when i started the zyprexa. i just need to remember to take it - lol.


i hope things continue to go well for you stability wise. i know that the stress tests your limits but you've proven that you can rise above it in order to maintain your stability. and perhaps now that the arguments have happened things will settle down and you and eric can get back on the right path again. i know i hope that's what will happen:) hang in there and keep us posted.


love u,


traci

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Registered: 03-25-2003
In reply to: keli003
Thu, 04-06-2006 - 9:50am

thanks traci! i'm glad you are posting...u sound better too...keep working at that! its hard, but we can do it...we have proven that!!! we'll have dark days again, but so does everyone else in the world, right? life isn't just peachy...keep that topamax up!!! but don't let it get out of hand!! it can do that quick...

keep posting every day, k?

Love you too.

Keli