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SO embarrassed!
| Thu, 04-06-2006 - 10:06am |
I just learned thru the "grapevine" that the ENTIRE big office building (5 floors) heard me the other day screaming my lungs out in my car. Probably close to 100 people. I am so mortified I am afraid to look anyone in the eye. Why do I completely FREAK when ever someone criticizes me?? I don't get angry at them, I just start to hate myself. I even feel suicidal, like driving my car over a bridge. I almost always loose it and have to run out of the office in hysterics while everyone watches. This has GOT to stop, but I can't even begin to know how. I don't think there's any "magic" medication out there that will ease my raging emotions. Sometimes I think they need to lock me up and throw away the key.
Sorry. Feeling glum and anxious today.
Jodie
Sorry. Feeling glum and anxious today.
Jodie

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I've always responded to those rumors in the past by saying "why, yes, I am, but they let me out and I'm doing much better now" - followed by my best Jack Nicholson crazy look.
Most people get the joke and those that don't, well, oh well.
did u have any trouble going from trileptal to tegretol??? its so much cheaper!!! i take only 300 of trileptal too and LOVE IT. but its like $50 for me, and the tegretol would be $10. lemme know!
Jodie
i really LOVE my combo of the small doses of lithium 300 and trileptal 300...even that small amount makes me sleepy, but it really really works...i was SO overmedicated it wasn't even funny...i can finally get my life back. ativan works VERY MUCH like xanax...it doesn't put me to sleep though...xanax is too recreational for me...big no no for an ex addict...they even hesitate to give me the ativan...but pdoc said if i did get addicted (i'm not) we'd deal with that when the time came, that i had to get my anxiety in check...it is, on ativan...
really think about trying small doses of the trileptal...it works...it didn't get rid of my agitation or irritability completely, whichi is why i added back in the lithium, once i did, it was heavenly...and no side effects...i'm even losing weight...
Jodie
Jodie,
Don't sweat it--would they rather have you inside screaming at them?
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