Is this the board I belong on?

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Registered: 02-18-2004
Is this the board I belong on?
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Fri, 04-07-2006 - 12:34am

Lately, I've been so depressed that I can't even eat. THough maybe I have some kinda anorexia or something. Then realized after reading lots of posts that I probably don't cause I don't really care what my bad looks like and they all seem to have their issue more with body image. I wish I cared either way about what my body looked like (cept I don't want to be too skinny.

So, can anyone give a guess (though I assume it's not professional) about if this is my board? PLease?

here's a quick bio. Single mom of 2, prt.time job.Mid-30's. Hve been in a major depression after the end of 3 year relationship. Was thinking lately about the fact that I'm unhappy with all aspects of my life. Career wise, I have a decent IQ, but always ended up messing up at jobs & college cause I couldn't consistanetly perform. I would decide over night to change jobs, majors, colleges, etc. I have weeks or days that I decide that I want to do something huge like study law or write a novel and then its like a switch goes off and I can't even manage to do one single productive thing. Socially, my past bfs have complained that being with me is like a rollercoaster. I can be so much fun, then fly off the handle over tiny things. When relationships fail or other problems come up, I am so upset that I won't even answer the phone, can't stop crying, and love the control over limiting how much food I eat.

Am I just psycho or possibly Bipolar? I don't have coverage for mental health care, but I think I might get some anyway.
Thanks for reading and any insight into this.

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Registered: 04-05-2006
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 1:37am

I'm just new to this board so I just wanted to say hello to a fellow newbie.

As to whether or not you have bp, I guess its hard for someone who isn't a pdoc to tell. I know that all my other problems - substance abuse and eating disorders distracted my pdocs from making the diagnoses that I had bp.

Its easy for me to know when I am in a depressed phase but more difficult to know if I am getting hypomanic. for years I just thought I was an idiot. quitting jobs, spending money, sleeping around. My main indicator that my mood is heading upwards is that I don't sleep and I start talking very fast and switch and change topics so fast that no one can follow me. seemingly this is very common in bi polar. I also get very sexually active and make very inappropriate statements and stuff.

does any of this sound familiar?

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Registered: 02-18-2004
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 1:47am

yes! Big time on everything except the money issue. I am very tight about how I spend my money. One other question...In relationships, I just realized that I always select the guys that will bring the most drama. Like a 5 years back I feel in love with and dated a married guy (and not pround of it.btw) or my last boyfriend. Talk about setting myself up for difficulties...he lives 5 hours away. The saddest part is that whenever we got together (1 or 2 times a month) our typical sinerio would be that we would be having a graet time and I was so happy to see him, then I would get really mad about something tiny. Does picking "drama" situations for partners sound familiar?

Thanks so much! This is hitting like a brick tonight and I think that I might be on to what my problems have been all my life!
Thanks so much.
Oh...I am also very effected by the weather.You?




Edited 4/7/2006 2:03 am ET by bay1995
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 7:32am
maybe you suffer from SAD(seasonal affective disorder)?
when i was nursing my newborn my then doc had me buy this light that i was supposed to sit under for some time everyday.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 8:21am

Hi there and welcome! Its hard to say because we can't diagnose someone...but you have some of the characteristics of someone with BP...you also have some of the characteristics of some of the personality disorders instead too...so again, its hard to say! BUT, I have one of each, Bipolar, and Borderline Personality, so what about just sticking around here and getting to know us??? We're all very close, and very knowledgeable...then you can make up your own mind about maybe what you feel you 'have' and then go and get a diagnosis from a psychiatrist.

As for the drama and setting yourself up for difficulties...you hit my life (before meds, that is) right on the money...omg. LOL.

Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 04-06-2005
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 8:31am

Hello and Welcome to the board !!!!


like the op have said, its hard for us to say.

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Fri, 04-07-2006 - 9:18am
Thanks so much to everyone who replied to my post. I have thought about seasonal disorder and I guess that could be. I have no idea what borderline personality is. I did see something interesting when I couldn't sleep and was surfing last night. It was about the link between adhd and bp. basically it said the same thing that soemone here posted...the symptoms being very similiar. Also, it said that people with bp very often have kids who have adhd as children and often exhibit bp as adults. My daughter was diagnosed with AD (but not the HD part of it)this year and now I'm wondering if all her problems have started cause of something that I gave her genetically. As I mentioned before, I'm really tight with my money, but I'm going to try to make myself find a therapist today and see if I can finally get to the bottom all these issues. But like everything else, I have some follow-through issues...lol.
Thanks again for reading and responding!
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 9:33am
hey there again...my son was dx'ed severely adhd when he was 3...young, but he definitely MOST definitely had it (something). Now that I have BP, its very likely that he does too...so yeah...interesting, huh? i know many many others who are bp who have kids present with adhd as young children...also, BP is found all over my mothers side of the family.
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Registered: 04-02-2003
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 3:38pm

Just wanted to say hi and, of course, you are welcome to post whether or not you have any official dx.