He's visiting !!!!
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| Sat, 04-08-2006 - 3:20pm |
Oh I see him now, I really, really see him! I'm so excited. I just want to go out and play with him so bad. I know, baby steps, but this feels so wonderful. He is truly amazing. He realizes this is not here for good so he's doing everything he can to help out & participate in household chores & connecting with eldest (and a little bit with our youngest).
Oh this is so nice. He actually woke up in a good mood. I was up all night with sick kids and he let me sleep in & took care of our son & didn't let our son come wake me. Now he's at the grocery store with our son & he plans on making dinner for the next 3 nights.
Now I want to go out as a family & as a couple. I want to laugh and play. I'm excited for Tues pdoc apt to let him know that either the Lamictal is kicking in, the Adavant is exactly what he needs and/or the Geodon is working - but strange visual side-effects.
He's not completely out of this. Last night he thought he could hear a radio playing and he did state he still feels like he's only living to die, but it's much quieter now.
OH I LOVE HIM, JUST GIVE ME A WEEK WITH HIM LIKE THIS AND IT WILL STRENGTHEN MY WILL TO KEEP FIGHTING FOR HIM !!!
Bonnie
P.S. Not one urge to drink since he started the Adavant. He's looking at it realistically though. 'This is how I feel today, I don't know about tomorrow.'

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Bonnie,
I'm so happy for both of you--that Wizard of OZ technicolor moment when everything starts being real again is the best!
Just keep reminding yourself to take it slow--you don't want to overwhelm him.
Hugs,
Marci