keli

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Registered: 11-19-2004
keli
Sun, 04-09-2006 - 8:15pm

hi babyes...

just took my meds, so this isquick.

terrible weekend. so manic, it hurts. fri was nightmare, got so trashed, humiliated myself w/ friedns could dnot stop coudlt not shtu up,yapyapyeap yap , cut so bad, made a disastser mess. couldnt sleep, took 400 traz a 6 am. visited nephew. went home took 6 ativan, slept, took bunch of seroqeul, took bunch of traz, sletp of and on all night, woke up today rearing to go, went shoppign like mad. bought soooo much. got home and crashedd fell aslep, woke up rearing to go, cleaned like crazy. caled pdoc. jsut took the right meds this time. going to see him tomorrow.dunno whhy, i not gionna chgange anythingn.

fri, he took me off a/d, put me on 15 abilify. 4-500 seroqeul. abilify's making me sick. i hate it. i yelled at him when he said lithium for hte 3rd friggin time in like 5 minutes. NO!!!!! my aunt died form studpdc bp mds. im not taking ti. NO. hes lucky im taking all thsi carp. seroqel s gonan make me fat.

speaking on f fatr. im a 6 now. so why the heck do i feel so fat? i dont feel a lb lighter or differnt than i did back when i was a 16, 190 lbs. i can disabppear and illstill be a fat pig.

luv yyou i miss you