Tina

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tina
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Wed, 04-12-2006 - 7:55am

Hey Tina,

I am sorry I didn't get to respond to you yesterday. I did read your post. I feel your pain and I wish I could take it away from you. I'm going through something with my dh too, and though its not the same, its heartbreaking in its own way and may come to my having to leave as well. So I feel you.

Please try to fight as hard as you can to get up. I know its hard, and I know you're yelling at me right now, that if you could you would. You know that I know that!!! But it really does help. If you can get out of bed, out of your night clothes, and outside. Even just going for a ride and screaming your anger at the JERK (wish I could use another word here) would make you feel better.

Don't you dare let him win. Do NOT! I know its hard to fight the depression. But the longer you DON"T fight, the longer you are letting it and Billy win. So baby steps...okay? You are way too beautiful for his skinny behind to win.

Just whatever u do know that I love you and I care for you and I am here for you always.

Keli

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Registered: 10-02-2003
In reply to: keli003
Wed, 04-12-2006 - 10:04am

Keli, I know you are right about getting out of bed. I did yesterday to go see tdoc. It helped but we all know anly I can help myself in this situation. I feel so bad that you are going through a rough time with dh. If there is anyway I can help, I am here for you.


My tdoc and I worked out a plan. Every week when I go to see her or if anytime I am going near my apartment, to take a bag of things with me and gradually move back in my old place. With just having surgery I don't want to move alot at one time. I disrespect Billy so much. The way I look at him is sooooo different. I feel ashammed to even still be here, but I know I have to do this one step at a time in order for it to be easier for me. Billy is sleeping now, his days and night are mixed up again. Hopefully that will give me the chance to bag up somethings and put in the trunk of my car