Today I hope my mom is comfortable and is making her peace with God. And I hope other people on this board who are having trouble believing can sense God's work in their lives (it is a BIG comfort when you know it's there.)
I wish that I could be less obsessive about supposed wrongs done to me, more forgiving, better at letting things go but also less of a doormat in some things.
And I wish my Dad would retire so he could relax and enjoy life
thanks traci...i do deserve that...but making myself believe that is a different story...i'm trying to stay positive today...going home is another story as well...last night was better, but i'm realistic...it just sucks, plain and simple. it wasn't supposed to be this way...and not now of all times...but i guess there never is a good time for any kind of problem...i'm looking forward to therapy tomorrow night...i have to learn to let go, for my own good...then if it works out, cool...if not, then i have to deal with it. he is the type that will never INTENTIONALLY hurt me...but its all this "difference" in behaviors, that i'm supposed to "just" get used to...that i can't handle...my life felll apart around me and i have to watch it happen...i just can't. and all trust flew out the window and things will never be the same again...how do i trust the one person in life that kept me safe? and now i don't feel safe with that one person? ya know? it plain out sucks...
I wish everyone the comfort of their higher powers love.
Keli- God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The Courage to change the things you can, and the Wisdom to know the difference. This helps me sometimes, hopefully it will help you more.
Rose- I wish for stability and for you to take meds to help work towards that stability.
Donna- I wish much success in your new position at work.
Traci & Mo- I wish everyday you find the ability to not smoke...I hope it is going well.
Cyn- I wish her husband all the safty in the world and to be brought home soon. For, her and her girls strength to get through this painful time.
If I think of more I will post...I feel like I am letting someone out...I wish you all love, peace and stability.
i'm doing pretty good...i think. lol. with baseball/softball season in full swing i hardly have time to do much of anything which is good because it keeps me from thinking. and that keeps my "stinkin' thinkin'" at bay.
i did get some good news last week. as you know i went back to school. well, at the beginning of march i decided to see if i could find a school that offered a degree in social work - which is why i went back to school in the first place. i found one based out of kentucky and applied. i finally heard back last week that i had been accepted and was set to start in the fall semester. then i got another letter from them informing me that i had also been awarded a $3000 annual scholarship as long as i maintain a 3.0 gpa. my gpa that i had when i left the other university was a 3.82.
the ball is rolling now as far as my ex goes as well. my attorney sent the letter to him on monday, so i'm figuring if he didn't receive it today he'll receive it tomorrow. i can pretty much guess his reaction which, if i'm right, means we're headed for a court date. but i'm okay with that now. i'm doing what needs to be done for my kids. and i no longer feel guilty or scared about proceeding.
i'm still struggling with the quitting smoking. that first week was easy, but now i'm really having a hard time. i don't know if it's the stress of what's going on with the ex or the stress of all the running around due to the kids ball season or stress of my job, but something this week has really set me back. so i keep trying and know that eventually i will be successful.
tina quoted the serenity prayer to you to help get you through this time in your life. believe it or not, it does help. and you know you can always contact me if you want to talk either by phone, email or im. i'm here for you as you have been here for me.
hang in there and keep me posted on how you're doing.
Today I hope my mom is comfortable and is making her peace with God. And I hope other people on this board who are having trouble believing can sense God's work in their lives (it is a BIG comfort when you know it's there.)
Express!
Beth "Petrouchka"
I wish for my close friends surgery today to go ok and for it not to be very extensive.
I wish for Missy some peace and knowlegde to do what is best for her
I wish for Keli to also have some peace and stability thru her rough time right now
I wish for Traci and Mo to continue their wonderful progress with quitting smoking.
I wish for Beth's mom to also have peace and keep her faith at this time.
I wish for Rose to find the right combo of meds and know that its ok to have to take them right now
I wish for everyone else whatever they need to make it thru today
God could not be everywhere, so
I wish that I could be less obsessive about supposed wrongs done to me, more forgiving, better at letting things go but also less of a doormat in some things.
And I wish my Dad would retire so he could relax and enjoy life
i wish for the courage to change the things i can and the strength to be able to carry that out.
beth i wish your mom finds peace too.
keli i wish you peace and serenity right now - you deserve that.
missy - i wish you the ability to make the decision that is right for you and the one that will give you peace as well.
to everyone else who is having a rough time my wish to all of you is that of serenity. there is no greater gift when we are in bad places.
hugs & love,
traci
thanks traci...i do deserve that...but making myself believe that is a different story...i'm trying to stay positive today...going home is another story as well...last night was better, but i'm realistic...it just sucks, plain and simple. it wasn't supposed to be this way...and not now of all times...but i guess there never is a good time for any kind of problem...i'm looking forward to therapy tomorrow night...i have to learn to let go, for my own good...then if it works out, cool...if not, then i have to deal with it. he is the type that will never INTENTIONALLY hurt me...but its all this "difference" in behaviors, that i'm supposed to "just" get used to...that i can't handle...my life felll apart around me and i have to watch it happen...i just can't. and all trust flew out the window and things will never be the same again...how do i trust the one person in life that kept me safe? and now i don't feel safe with that one person? ya know? it plain out sucks...
thanks for the wishes...i wish the same for you.
how are you btw?
I wish everyone the comfort of their higher powers love.
Keli- God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The Courage to change the things you can, and the Wisdom to know the difference. This helps me sometimes, hopefully it will help you more.
Rose- I wish for stability and for you to take meds to help work towards that stability.
Donna- I wish much success in your new position at work.
Traci & Mo- I wish everyday you find the ability to not smoke...I hope it is going well.
Cyn- I wish her husband all the safty in the world and to be brought home soon. For, her and her girls strength to get through this painful time.
If I think of more I will post...I feel like I am letting someone out...I wish you all love, peace and stability.
Tina
i'm doing pretty good...i think. lol. with baseball/softball season in full swing i hardly have time to do much of anything which is good because it keeps me from thinking. and that keeps my "stinkin' thinkin'" at bay.
i did get some good news last week. as you know i went back to school. well, at the beginning of march i decided to see if i could find a school that offered a degree in social work - which is why i went back to school in the first place. i found one based out of kentucky and applied. i finally heard back last week that i had been accepted and was set to start in the fall semester. then i got another letter from them informing me that i had also been awarded a $3000 annual scholarship as long as i maintain a 3.0 gpa. my gpa that i had when i left the other university was a 3.82.
the ball is rolling now as far as my ex goes as well. my attorney sent the letter to him on monday, so i'm figuring if he didn't receive it today he'll receive it tomorrow. i can pretty much guess his reaction which, if i'm right, means we're headed for a court date. but i'm okay with that now. i'm doing what needs to be done for my kids. and i no longer feel guilty or scared about proceeding.
i'm still struggling with the quitting smoking. that first week was easy, but now i'm really having a hard time. i don't know if it's the stress of what's going on with the ex or the stress of all the running around due to the kids ball season or stress of my job, but something this week has really set me back. so i keep trying and know that eventually i will be successful.
tina quoted the serenity prayer to you to help get you through this time in your life. believe it or not, it does help. and you know you can always contact me if you want to talk either by phone, email or im. i'm here for you as you have been here for me.
hang in there and keep me posted on how you're doing.
love u,
traci