starting a bad day!!!!!

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Registered: 12-12-2005
starting a bad day!!!!!
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Wed, 04-19-2006 - 10:49am

It has been a while since I have been here and I hope all is well with everyone. I have been doing well with out my meds, or atleast I thought so.. ButI felt the cahnge coming on Monday. Now I couldnt get out of bed it was 10am when I got up. I went to bed at 8pm. I dont want to talk and speak to anyone. And that is hard on my 70 yr old dad who has moved in with us. My husband is away in Boston working and I just wanna cry. Dh i so stressed and exhausted at work I feel bad bothering him. I am due to get my new insurance bene's next month. Why couldn' this cycle happen next month when I have my new insurance and RX plan? I know that I should keep busy to keep my mind off things but I just wanna cry for days. It used to be easier for me in these time when my dad want living with us, now i feel the need to hide it all as i am so embarrassed. caue hw doesn't understand it. He trys to but I think that generation has a hard time doing so. The last week i was on a high for a few days, walking 2 miles every other day no sleeping i should of seen it then. OH GOD.....Ples just help me thru these days...... I havent really cycled in a few months I actuall got to beliving that maybe i dont have BP...but it does have a cruel way of reminding one, doesn't it? WEll i just needed to go somewhere where there are people who understand. I thank you all for listening and taking the time to read this. I know I should be on the board more often and for that I am sorry. I just need to get thru this as soon as possible, but that is up to the BP, isn't it?

Jo

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 04-19-2006 - 10:57am

Hey Jo! I wondered where you went! I know bp has a horrid way of reminding us of its presence...i'm sorry you're in a down cycle...the downs are the worst. The only thing you can do is get up and try to distract yourself...easier said than done, I know. Boy, do I know!!! But you CAN do it. I know you can...ya know honey, go ahead and cry...get it out of your system...there is nothing wrong with that! Okay? Then get up! Move around...do something...and wait it out...post here, talk as much as you want and can...it helps...even if you are just repeating that you don't feel good! We don't care...and we understand...

Love and Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 12-12-2005
Wed, 04-19-2006 - 2:23pm

You made me cry.....in a good way. I can't thank you enough for making me feel wanted. I have taken a walk, re-arranged the furniture and vacumed. It had kept my mind off it for a bit but once I sat down everything just comes rushing in like a flood in the brain. I am tankfull that my dad went for a bike ride so he is out of the house for a bit. I just dont know where to begin or end. i feel so lost at the moment. Mybe when i can starighten out my thoughts a bit i will post more. I again thank you for making me feel wanted.

Jo

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Wed, 04-19-2006 - 2:31pm

Oh you're welcome!!! You're always wanted here!!! I know exactly what you mean about when you are still the thoughts come rushing back...I hate that.

We're here for you!

Love and Hugs,

Keli