I was given one more day...
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| Wed, 04-19-2006 - 12:31pm |
...to work on my life. Decisions, decisions, decisions...sigh
Trying to learn what is best for me. I usually don't think about me too much, so I feel like I am in a foriegn land. I want to cry when I think of making choices for myself because I feel like it is a trick question and I am afraid to give the wrong answer. There is no pill in the world that can help with that. I am trying to think things through before I do anything. I am still moving back to my apartment. Billy doesn't know for sure that I am and I am not telling him until the last minute, so if there is an arguement about it, all I have to do is get my things and leave, but there are things I need to take care of before the move. I did ask Billy about counseling again, in an e-mail, but he hasn't talked to me about it yet. I will bring it up at some point SOON. Trying to find the right time is imposible b/c there is no right time with him when it comes to helping himself and dealing with his issues.
I called the colloge today and scheduled an appointment with an Academic Advisor. My appontment is Monday at 1pm. I am hoping for some good news on how i can get through school as soon as possible without over loading myself. I don't know if I told any of you what I am going back to school to be. I am going to get a degree to be a Certified Addictions Counselor. I am already overwhelemd thinking I need at least a B.A. degree to make some money at it and I am hoping with Gods help I can make it to my Masters degree. I am thinking it will take at least 5 years for all of it and at the most 7 years. I hope I can handle it. I am looking forward to starting back to school but also very scared/nervous.
I am on the maximum dosage of all my meds, except, Risperdal, I am only on .5mg, which I don't know what that little bit is doing for me. But I take the darn thing. I have the shakes all the time. I wish they would go away. I am spilling drinks and dropping things. My body needs to calm down but I don't know how to make it. Oh well, thats my boring life. I hope everyone is having a good day.
Tina

even if they are baby steps...they are steps in the right direction.
we can sit here and give you advise and tell you what to do, but in the end, its all your call.
God could not be everywhere, so
Tina,
I agree with Donna--you sound like you're taking the steps you need to, to get on with your life--I know it's not easy, but keep on keepin' on.
Kudos on following through with school--it can make a big difference in your life.
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers,
Hugs,
Marci
.....There is no pill in the world that can help with that.....
Exactly how I feel about some things. I wish all the luck in the world with school, good for you! Treat yourself to something nice, you'll feel better...retail therapy lol
Hope that you can make tons of progress with counseling ((hugs))