tdoc says i'm depressed

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Registered: 03-25-2003
tdoc says i'm depressed
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Sun, 04-23-2006 - 7:06pm
that the "result" of my stabilizing is me being depressed.
i am.
instead of feeling on top of everything & everybody,i don't feel even...i feel below.
way way below.
as tho i'm not even worth knowing....i actually don't remember feeling like this before EVEN when i've been depressed.
i've felt as tho i've been wronged & people will cry buckets when i'm gone,but now i feel as tho they may not notice.
i feel as tho if my h left,as much as i don't fulfill my part of our marraige..i feel like i wouldn't even know how to change a lightbulb or pay a bill or care for my children.
& who else would want me.
i'm actually humiliated to go out in public...especially since that comment to me about how "shocking" my weight gain is.i have to go on stage in a week & i'd almost prefer to have all my fingers broken.no kidding.how many other people will i disgust??today i had to be pushed out the door & i was going to be with people who never judge.
the creep has been calling me again trying to get me to sneak out & i'll bet he'll be ringing my doorbell & i can't even bring myself to tell him to go blow b/c i feel like i'm such garbage i should be thankful some man wants me even if it's to use me.
i just had to talk.i feel so much a part of nothing at all.
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Registered: 11-18-2003
Sun, 04-23-2006 - 10:33pm

((((((((((((suzi)))))))))))))) it sounds as though you need to call your pdoc asap! stability does not equal depression of this magnitude hon. you deserve to feel better than this. and you would be missed very much if you were gone. you must get some help from your docs to get you back on track. tdoc should not accept this as "stable" behavior.


keep posting here. vent it out as often as you need to. we're here for you and want to help you as best as we can. you go to that performance - you won't disgust anyone. believe in yourself and be darned with what others may or may not think.


hugs,


traci

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Registered: 02-06-2004
Mon, 04-24-2006 - 8:19am

suziq,


You are such a part of this community. If you feel you belong nowhere else, know that you have a home here with us.


Hugs,

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