ready to scream

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Registered: 12-12-2005
ready to scream
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Mon, 04-24-2006 - 4:20pm

Well the weekend was not bad even though I had to work on sunday and leave befor DH had to leave. So I cried all the way to work. Then i started to get a HORRIBLE migraine. I got sick at work from it. And there was no one to cover for me so I had to stay there until 6pm. I got home let my dogs out and went to bed. I was up most of the night with it. My dad went to his girfriends last night and came home at noon today. And it was nice not having him home. And if anyone here has migrains they know what they are like and just preferred not to be bothered. Well it all starts the instant he gets home. He felt the need to rearrange my garden to how HE feels it should be. And then he has decided to work on the baseboard that we are redoing in the house. And thats all fine, but he knows I dont feel well and my head still kinds hurts and I WAS knaping on the sofa. So now my head ache is starting to come back cause i am stressing and he see's nothing wrong in what he is doing. I am about to cry I can'se seem to get him to understand. I am so over having him live with us. I know it sounds harsh!!!! But he is so set in his ways that it seems like we should all convert to his ways no matter what.
I think I am gonna take my lap top to my room and go lay in bed. I will let him fix his own dinner for once or he can eat left overs. I am just so sick and tired of this head ache. It's killing me and there is no one here to take care of things for me. I just want to go to sleep for a few days.

Jo

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In reply to: lil_lou
Mon, 04-24-2006 - 4:23pm

I hate migraines !!!

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In reply to: lil_lou
Mon, 04-24-2006 - 5:24pm

Well I took a hot shower and got a coke, thanks donna.....lol My neurologist said the same thing. I am sitting in my room with my boys, peanut and buster. Lucky them they are asleep. But I think I am hitting the down sid to my manic spell a few days ago. All the stress brought on the migrain,or so I think. And now I cant stop crying and just dont care to see or deal with any one.

It seems as time goes on life is getting harder and harder to deal with. What I cant handle is so easy for normal people to deal with and that makes me feel less of a person. The bills ar piling up, there is always something that needs to be done around here, I am behind in my student loans, I only see DH on weekends cause of his work, I am ashamed at the way that I look, and not to mention having your 71 yr old father move in with you. Well I should probably save that for another board....LMAO

I am hoping that this goes by quicky and it doesn't hang on for a few days. I have to work tomorrow and wednesday. And I am stressing at just the thought of trying to get thru those 2 days. I thought that the past few months I was doing ok. No major ups or downs. Nothing like this. And I have been off meds for about 10 months now, not by choice. But this time it is not good. I know this. Maybe if i just cry and keep crying I would fall a sleep and get a bit of peace and quiet in my head. Times like this I wish my mom was alive, she always knew what to say and how to make me fell better. But then again I think all moms have that special way. My mom died when I was 18, she will be gone 14 ys this summer. And I was not fortunate to have kids, I had to have a hysterectomy at 25, 3 months after I got married. All I have is DH and my boys, peanut and buster...lol They boys fill the void while Dh is sway at work for the week. I think I'm gonna curl up with them and lay donw for a bit and see if the head ache subsides and maybe I will start to feel better in general.

Jo

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In reply to: lil_lou
Tue, 04-25-2006 - 8:35am

maybe one way to look at going to work, in a positive way, is that you can get out of the house and away from your dad for awhile....even a couple hours can help.


try not to think of other people as normal...I really don't believe in that.

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