Say a prayer that I get through the next two days. Tommorrow is the day I meet with the attorney and on Saturday I have my sons 5th birthday and his father is supposed to be here. He is also supposed to grab a few more of his things. It is going to be a rough few days.
I have not yet cried yet today which is amazing. I have felt on the verge but am trying to make it through the day without crying. H has not even called to check on his kids. I took down some of his fire stuff that used to decorate our living room and boxed it up this morning. My mom is going to help me take down the wallpaper border he half hung up in there too. I hate all the reminders of him. I don't even like saying my last name now.
My oldest is doing amazing. He says he is through the hurt and upset phase and is now a little mad at daddy. He is being very sweet to me and protective. He is loving having my family around and needs that right now. The other two have mentioned that Daddy does not live here but don't seem to get it.
I am trying to stop making things easy on Josh. I won't ask the kids if they want to call Daddy. If they mention it, of course I will let them. But he has the idea that they have always wanted to call him at work to say good night when it was always me making them. So that has stopped. I will not suggest they spend time with him. He has to step up and make the effort, right. Am I doing the right thing or should I be pushing it more? I am so confused.
Illinois is an alimony state and I will try to get it, and he knows this so he is not taking that well. I will see what the attorney says tommorrow. I am not doing it to hurt him I just want to provide all that I can for the kids. I have stayed at home a lot of years while he has furthered his career.
I am sending my prayers out to ya. Hope you are doing ok! And I hope you hear encouraging words tomorrow @ the lawyers. I'm glad you have family around you too.
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Say a prayer that I get through the next two days. Tommorrow is the day I meet with the attorney and on Saturday I have my sons 5th birthday and his father is supposed to be here. He is also supposed to grab a few more of his things. It is going to be a rough few days.
I have not yet cried yet today which is amazing. I have felt on the verge but am trying to make it through the day without crying. H has not even called to check on his kids. I took down some of his fire stuff that used to decorate our living room and boxed it up this morning. My mom is going to help me take down the wallpaper border he half hung up in there too. I hate all the reminders of him. I don't even like saying my last name now.
My oldest is doing amazing. He says he is through the hurt and upset phase and is now a little mad at daddy. He is being very sweet to me and protective. He is loving having my family around and needs that right now. The other two have mentioned that Daddy does not live here but don't seem to get it.
I am trying to stop making things easy on Josh. I won't ask the kids if they want to call Daddy. If they mention it, of course I will let them. But he has the idea that they have always wanted to call him at work to say good night when it was always me making them. So that has stopped. I will not suggest they spend time with him. He has to step up and make the effort, right. Am I doing the right thing or should I be pushing it more? I am so confused.
Illinois is an alimony state and I will try to get it, and he knows this so he is not taking that well. I will see what the attorney says tommorrow. I am not doing it to hurt him I just want to provide all that I can for the kids. I have stayed at home a lot of years while he has furthered his career.
OK. Now I am rambling.
Thanks for all the support.
Missy
God could not be everywhere, so
Missy,
How are you? I've been keeping you in my thoughts.