my meeting with pdoc and...

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my meeting with pdoc and...
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Wed, 04-26-2006 - 10:26pm

tdoc today. i met again briefly with tdoc this morning because i had to give her some things in order to honor a contract i signed with her. she again suggested i start my sessions again but saw the discomfort in me at the mention of it and backed off. she said she'd let it go and leave it to me because she doesn't want to add to my stress right now.


this afternoon i met with pdoc and told her everything from the wrestless self-destructive mood i was in last week to the depressed mood i've found myself in the past few days. she asked me if i noticed this happening 'regularly' because i sounded like it has happened before. i told her that i'm no stranger to short-term stability, which i thought i had told her before but maybe i didn't. i don't know. so she has decided to start me on lithium. she says it's time to 'stop playing around' and go with a tried and true med because i'm a rapid cycler. she said that once she gets me to a therapeutic dose of the lithium she'll take me off of the depakote, then the zyprexa and topomax and reduce the wellbutrin and leave the klonopin on an as need basis. so tomorrow i've got to go get baseline lab work done so i can start the lithium asap. i need relief as soon as i can get it.


i had to call tdoc after pdoc appointment and she is happy that pdoc is putting me on lithium. she's thought lithium was what i should have been on for a long time now. so hopefully the lithium will get me stable again quickly and i won't have to worry about going back to tdoc or at least not for a while.


well, that's it for now. thanks for listening.


hugs,


traci

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Thu, 04-27-2006 - 8:10am

I'm glad they are changing things around....I think this a good step in the right direction !!!


Thanks for keeping us posted.


how are you today?

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Thu, 04-27-2006 - 9:34am

i'm hanging in and am now safe, as i've given tdoc the 'unsafe' items. my mood still sucks, but hopefully once i start the lithium it will work as quick as i've heard it does and then i'll be stable again. keep your fingers crossed. it's hard for me to be too hopeful because i'm so discouraged right now from all the failed meds.


i think i'm also bummed 'cause i blew my quit, but tdoc seems to think with the court thing coming up with xh i probably shouldn't try to quit right now anyway. so i don't know about that one yet whether i'll take her advice on it or not. i really need to quit but my stress level seems to be getting in the way. so i continue to go in circles. ugh.


thanks for listening.


traci

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Thu, 04-27-2006 - 10:11am

just remember its ok if you quit/stop again and again...it can take lots of tries before its successful...and it happens to a lot of people (my mom has been trying for years...)


when is the court date?

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Thu, 04-27-2006 - 10:11am

Traci-


I am glad you are safe. I hope the lithium helps you. You have been through so much. You need a med that will give you the ability to cope with the stresses in your life, which you have many and especially with XH. Hang in there.


Tina- aka firelightshimmer

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Thu, 04-27-2006 - 10:50am
i smoked 2 last night & 2 the night before & i've been off them for months.
give yourself a break.
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Thu, 04-27-2006 - 10:33pm

no court date has been set yet. the lawyer is waiting to see if he signs off on the agreement so it doesn't have to go to court. i know my ex, however. and i would be stunned if he actually consented to this. knowing him, he'll fight it tooth and nail. so i need to ask my attorney how long she is going to wait before she files the petition in court to get a court date.


as for quitting smoking i'm really trying not to beat myself up over it. it's just an easy pattern for me to fall into, especially when i'm depressed.


anyway, i'll keep you posted on how i do with the lithium. i got the baseline labwork done this morning and took my first dose tonight. i'm starting at 300 mgs and in 7 days i'll go up to 600 mgs. so it'll be a while before i know if it is going to work or not.


traci