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| Fri, 05-05-2006 - 11:11am |
We ll I have had 2 huge triggers today that has now sent me down the cryng BP spiral. My mini doxi peanut looks like he might be shoing shings of back probelms. And he is my security balnket.... We had to put my other mini asleep 2 yrs ago cause he broke his. So I am petrafied now. Dh thinks I am over reacting, or so I think. Peanut is just not him self and doesnt want to be bothered today. And I have to work 2-8 so I willbe worried about him all day now.
2nd my dad is out side butchering our shrub, they look awful now. Any way He couldn't monover the wheelbarrow to well and ran over a walk way light. He didn't know that I was in the living room and could hear him. He called it flippne crap, but more colorful then that and was cussing up a storm that we buy crap. Yet with more adjectives. So I went marching out that door and told him real nice dad, thanks alot. I dont call anything you buy or do that. Then he gets nasty with me and tells me to get over it I am too sensitive. I told him I wouldnt be too sensitive it he would just stop putting down me, DH, everything we do and everything we own. He just walked off.
I am in the house trying not to cry cause if he comes in I dont want him to see that he got to me. I know that If I tell Dh he will say thats it lets move andhe can stay in the house. I am at the point that I am ready to put one of those patio lights up his you know what. I am actually wanting to leave just to get away form it all but I am too aorried about peanut. And the worst thing is I only have one cig left till I go to town to go to work...LMAO Why does life alwasy have to stick it to ya.
Now I know the rest of the day is ruined and I am gonna have to fight so hard not to go into that bp hole. This time the change has happend so quick. I normally can see/feel it coming but not this time. WHAM!!!! It hit my right up side the head. I just wanna call off work and cry myself to sleep. But that wouldnt help wither cause dad will still be here and I just might have to kill him...lol
I will try to let you allknow if I am any better before I have to leave for work. If not I will be on after 9pm. And can anyone tell me if there is a chat session on this tuesday?
Thanx
Jo

Poor Peanut...I understand you worry about your dear pet. I love my dog, she is the best part of my days. I hope everything works out for Peanut. I hope he will be ok. I am sorry you are having a rough time today. When these things happen we don't know if we want to hide in bed or run out the door for excape. I hope your day gets better. Let us know.
Tina
~ Tina ~
They say the only thing constant is change. And for BPers, I think it's intensified. Unfortunately we don't always get warning signs. So just do your best to get through your day. I know you are worried about Peanut. I too hope he is ok. And I live with my mother, who is an alcoholic so I know all about the frustration that goes with living with a parent.
Remember we are here for you so you vent as often as you need. I should be around tonight if you need to talk to someone. Hang in there hon.
Hugs,
Traci
I hope peanut feels better soon...and maybe dad will get off your back for awhile.
God could not be everywhere, so