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Mon, 05-08-2006 - 1:30pm

Had last tdoc today...can't afford any more with insurance tdocs right now...but I'll be okay. I am not going to hurt myself, so don't worry...and I am functional...just hurting...and just depressed...that's all. I need to get up and live I know, but its not as easy as 123. I wish it were. I am working on it, but it just takes me more time than usual, because I depended on Eric for complete emotional care. Now its gone.

I have to build another support system. Myself first. Its hard to do, when I don't like myself very much, but again, I can do it.

I have to move. ASAP. CANNOT stay in that house much longer, period. Found a place, a perfect place, but don't have the money to hold it til the end of the month, and that is still a while away. Pray the guy will hold it anyway. I have to get out fast...too much really bad stuff is there, and i gotta get away from it...and this place I found is ideal.

I will be okay, but its VERY hard. I am very confused and very hurt and am alone when I go home...I have to get used to that and learn to accept it and embrace it...it will come in time. I have to, or else I will soon start to dissociate, and if that happens, its so not good.

So, I'll be fine. Just wanted you to know.

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Registered: 04-06-2005
In reply to: keli003
Mon, 05-08-2006 - 3:51pm

I know you don't like this idea, but get the money from your parents...and get the )(&@+)(#* out of that place of yours...especially if its going to help that much more.


we are here for you, we are a support system...I know its not the same, not even close...embrace your son if you have to.


I know its not easy as 123 to just get up and on with your life...but you have to start somewhere..ya know?


can't this tdoc work with you as far as money goes?

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