Hello Found this board again FINALLY

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Registered: 10-22-2005
Hello Found this board again FINALLY
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Sat, 05-13-2006 - 2:58pm

I just found this board again. Took forever. I used to visit quite frequently until I moved 3 years ago & stopped all my medication. I miss the support I had here. You could talk openly about anything & everything. I hope it is the same here today. I used to be BluRoseRie on Ivillage...not sure if anyone is here that would remember me. I will open up more as I visit & get to know you all.

But for now...I am Marie. I am 35 & was diagnosed with Bi-Polar over 5 years ago. I am remarried (this time to my childhood sweetheart) & have a new baby (well he is almost 2 now). I live in PA. We are hoping to move back to UT soon. That is about it for now. Talk more later on.

Marie

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Registered: 09-01-2004
Sat, 05-13-2006 - 4:58pm

Marie, Welcome back, I still have problem finding us when my bookmarks aren't working (even after 4 years)

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Registered: 05-02-2006
Sun, 05-14-2006 - 12:56am

Welcome back Marie:) Yes, you will find the board pretty much the same as you left it 3 years ago. Except there's a lot of new "faces" as I'm sure you will see. We are still a very supportive group of women and help each other out as often as we can. So, post as often as you need to and know that we are here for you.


Hugs,
Traci

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Registered: 10-22-2005
Sun, 05-14-2006 - 1:11pm
Thanks to you both for the warm welcome. I really appreciate it :-) I hope all those of you who have Children have a terrific Mother's Day!!
Marie
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Registered: 05-02-2006
Sun, 05-14-2006 - 4:53pm

Thanks Marie:) I hope you have a good Mother's Day too! We look forward to getting to know you better.


Hugs,


Traci

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Registered: 05-09-2006
Mon, 05-15-2006 - 6:13am

Hi Marie,

I'm completely new to this board. In your post you mentioned that you had been off meds for 3 years now. (I'm guessing for pregnancy? As you mentioned a 2 year old). I was wondering if you could offer a few words on how you have felt off meds vs. how you felt while on them.

I was diagnosed several months ago but am very reluctant to go on the anticonvulsants and other medications. I'd like to keep the "serious" meds on hold for as long as I am able.
Do you think it is possible to get along without them?

Also, I am so happy to hear that you have children! My doctor has been really,really negative when I bring up the subject of having children. It's had me pretty upset. So, reading your post made me feel so much better.

Okay, sorry to bombard you with questions on your first post!

Thanks!

Debs

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Mon, 05-15-2006 - 7:53am

Hey Marie, and welcome back! Yes, its the same...we talk about everything, very openly here, and its a life saver...I'm Keli...been here a long time, so we've probably talked...I'm 35 too, but my son is 15 and I'm newly separated from my high school sweetheart :(. I hear it gets easier, and it does...every day brings something new though! Ugh.

I'm glad you finally found the board again, its wonderful here...my only support!

Love and Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 11-03-2005
Mon, 05-15-2006 - 8:12am

Hi and welcome to the board. I don't post much but I do try to welcome everybody or lend support when I can or offer some advice on a similiar situation. I hope you had a good mothers day.

 
 
 
 

 
 
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Registered: 04-06-2005
Mon, 05-15-2006 - 9:13am

Hello and Welcome !!!


hope you had a great mother's day !!!

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Registered: 10-22-2005
Mon, 05-15-2006 - 5:34pm

Well, first let me tell you it isn't easy. I am still having mood swings but I have a husband who helps me get past them now instead of adding to it. He is really good about calming me down. I went off the meds when I was going through my divorce from my first husband & moving out of state. (DON'T recommend doing that by the way) I went off them slowly but Wyatt (my husband now) told me that I can overcome the need for them. We have known each other since we were children. I moved out of Utah to be with him in Pennsylvania. I do have a family dr here that knows about the bipolar & my history & she keeps a close eye on it & we talk alot. I have my moments when I probably should be back on them because I get soo manic that I am either bouncing off the walls or I am meaner than H)#@$*(. But I just go into another room & either clean something or I sit & talk to Wyatt about what is going on. I don't know how he does it but he has me so calmed down most of the time that I can honestly say I am HAPPY. I know I am not perfect & will never be especially as a mother, but I am ok. Being off meds is very hard but I don't like the feeling I had when I was on them (I was on Lamictal (sp?) & Seroquel) Taking both 2x a day. I had Xanax on the side in case I couldn't calm myself down. It was scary going off the meds but I think I did pretty well.

As for the kids....Between my husband & I we have 6 total. I have 3, he has 2 & WE have 1. They are: 17, 15, 13, 12, 7, & 20 mo. A lot of work & I yell ALOT. I get frustrated more than anything & that is where a LOT of the stress comes from. Especially the step children. They live with us F/T. My older 3 (17, 15 & 7) live with their father. That is also a cause of stress. But I just realize it isn't going to be the way I want it all the time & organize as much as I can to stay in my realm of "control". I go to my car & scream once in a while just to get some of it out. Or i just drive around & cry. Other than that being a mom is something I wouldn't trade for anything. My two oldest have Bi Polar tendencies & I think it is starting to come out more in my 15 yr old (who isn't talking to me right now because I am the reason everything is wrong in her life (so she tells me)). It is a struggle but well worth it & I am very thankful each day that I never succeeded in my suicidal attempts when I was a teen. They are a blessing & a trigger in every way. I love every minute of it with them. Hope that helps some.

Marie