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Bad morning
| Mon, 05-15-2006 - 10:54am |
The day has started and I am having a very depressed morning. I have been depressed but nothing real bad. Today I feel like taking pills to help me sleep and sleeping through the day. I have negative talk going through my head. I have been crying on and off. I guess today isn't going to be a good day. I hope it is only one day.

Hey love...I know how you feel, and it sucks...depression sucks...life sucks...but we're here...and we gotta live it somehow...and i'm trying for the life of me, to figure out how to live it more happily than being depressed all the time...i hate it right now though...big time. My weekend sucked too. I stayed in bed all day on Saturday, literally. I forced myself to get up and go pick up my brother and then drive to my Mom's yesterday...it wasn't easy. I never heard a word from Eric...he promised me he would bring me money, and didn't...and then never called, and ignored all my calls. I'm still so much in shock, but I hate him...and I hate myself because somewhere inside, I still love him.
I don't know how I am getting through my days and nights are even worse. I'm trying SO hard not to fall back on old bad habits...Its not easy either.
I've found a duplex to move into...but I've called and the guy hasn't called me back. I don't know if I can work it out, but I hope I can. I have GOT to move in the next 2 weeks...that might help me out a lot.
You are not a "big fat pig". If you are, then I am. You would never call me that...and you are the most important person to YOU, so stop it. Course, I do the same thing...ugh. All we can do is do what we have to do. Whether it be eating, or moving on from hurts so horrible that we want to die. Do you know what I mean? We have no other choices! Yes, it sucks...its not fair. None of it is...
Well, I'm just rambling on and on here...I am leaving at 1 today, to try to figure out something with the duplex, and take my ds to get a haircut...I'll have to work late tomorrow to make up the time, but I have to get this done. Just say some prayers for me, please. i need them desperately.
Feel better. I love you.
Keli
(((((((((Tina)))))))) sweetie, you have been through an emotional wringer this past weekend. It sounds like it has finally caught up with you. You are a beautiful person and there's no 2 ways about it! You're also a very thoughtful, caring and giving person. You've hit a low and hopefully it will be short term but if it persists promise me you'll call your doc ok?
Hang in there hon. We're here for you.
Hugs,
Traci
I know why you (and me)
God could not be everywhere, so
Oh Tina I wish I could be there to hugg you. I to had a bad day yesterday and was crying on an off ALL day. But even though it is rainy and nasty here I seems some how to be an ok day. So maybe tomorrow will be better for you. And as fo being a sickly person I understand. I have had 12 different surguries, migrains, fibromyalgia, BP, had spinal menengitis and various other lil thing. All I can do is take one day at atime and hope for the best. And as for you calling your self a PIG....you are not. JUST STOP IT!! You make a differenc in many peoples lives even mine. I wish I could do more to make you feel good, If I had your address I would send you flower just to make you smile..
I hope things get better for you soon. I will put you in my paryars tonight.
Huggs,
jo