It's Thursday...How R U?

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Registered: 05-02-2006
It's Thursday...How R U?
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Thu, 05-25-2006 - 10:22am

I know a lot of us are having a tough time right now with various issues.


Please check in and tell us your name, where you are from and how you are doing.


I'm Traci in Northern VA and am still fighting this stupid sinus infection. The antibiotics are slow acting. I'm also trying to accept the generosity of dd16's father and really struggling with that. I talked to tdoc about it yesterday and she said that she understood why I felt the way I do and tried to get me to see it from his point of view. She suggested a session next week when she's back in town. I don't know, I can't afford it, but maybe it's time.


Anyway, that's where I'm at today. How is everyone else? Let us know:)


Hugs,
Traci

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Registered: 05-22-2006
Fri, 05-26-2006 - 8:56am
Hi there! I am Kelli and I have been reading your posts and I notice in one you mentioned rage issues. I have my first in 22 years tdoc appt next Wednesday. I go through the same thing you do - near daily (up down up down - like a freakish march). I also have this simmering rage for no reason that rears now and again and I don't know why. And I've been self medicating with alcohol to the point where I am concerned enough to be lurking on the Alcohol Problems board. I guess I'll find out everything next week if I am honest and lay it all out. How did you get to the point where you decided to see a tdoc? I turned 39 this year and just got tired of being myself. I hope this works - good luck to you in your search as well!





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Registered: 03-25-2003
Fri, 05-26-2006 - 1:20pm

Hi Kelli...I'm another Keli...I just wanted to let you know that I can relate to what you are going through. What you are experiencing is called ultra rapid cycling, and its what I did for YEARS before I finally stabilized. The rage is just another facet of this oh most fascinating disorder...lol. We all go through it...its there just under the surface, just waiting on a trigger.

I don't do therapy well. I do meds, its the only way I got even CLOSE to being stable. Its a long journey and you have to fight your butt off to get here, but its worth it, to finally have a life again. I also self medicated and it got to the point where I disappeared...do you know what I mean??? I, ME, disappeared, and the person that remained was someone I did not know at all.

I think you are very brave for going back to therapy and getting help. You can do it.

If you wanna talk, just let me know. I've been doing this for so long now, that I probably can relate to just about anything.

Hugs and Love,

Keli

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Registered: 05-22-2006
Fri, 05-26-2006 - 1:47pm
Hi Keli - thanks for sharing because sometimes I think I have lost it. Every Jan thru Mar, I shop. A lot and it causes all kinds of trouble between dh and me (right after Xmas too...). Then just when I think I've settled down, April thru June, I eat - again, constantly. Then the next quarter I get rigid and diet to death then the "holidays" - it's Everything, All the Time. So maybe the drinking doesn't help things after all. I had a bad vibe so cancelled the one tdoc. After those office drive bys this week, I didn't feel good about it. Then my first choice tdoc emailed me today and said she had an opening next Tuesday so I took it as karma and am going with her. Now I know I will go for sure and take responsibility. Thank you so much for your encouragement!! Kelli
PS - I can't wait to stop being so "newbie" and get sage and wise like everyone else here!





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