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| Fri, 03-04-2011 - 12:29pm |
I haven't been on lately as I've stumbled along my pathway and am here today, dusting myself off and putting that proverbial band aid back over my wound. For whatever reason, today I'm just angry and frustrated and dissapointed with myself. Its just one of those days. The anger has reared its face in my life and I'm just tired. I know I need to let go, not be so hard on myself and continue forward, but I can't get over the fact that I stumbled. I know, that sounds dumb, because we all stumble and this is where we learn our lessons, but I'm just being particularly hard on myself today and I just want someone to listen. Someone other than xap. someone who's been there.
I had my counseling session last week and I felt like we barely touched the surface of the problem at hand. I wanted more time. I needed more time. That seems to be the thing with me these days, "i need more time." Oh. my. gosh. Here's to another day...just as long as I keep one step in front of the other...I can do this. I WILL do this.

Hi Wakingup,
I just wanted to send a quick reply to give you a bit of encouragement...I have only been NC since February 20th and had a D-Day on Feb. 23rd.
Thank you very much HOS for your kind and encouraging words. My brain seems to be a big ball of mush today..and so are my emotions, but I will get through this.
You are soo very right, the pain is intense, but the healing is purifying. Here's to wishing us all strength throughout this healing journey of ours. We can and we will do this.